After that long post i did not forget. It has hurt for way longer than it should have.
I remember crying while walking from lavender to mbs on vday. I remember all those promises you made about deciding. But i lost in the end. My 150% wasn't enough.
It had to drag for months more and finally ended the weekend after i was released from hospital. 9 sep. Cannot forget.
The texting finally stopped after one tantrum in mid april. The pain never did.
Cannot decide whether the 4 holes in my abdomen hurts more or the fact that i still hear and see everything about you.
Just one more month to my step out to freedom
