Deadlines. Deadlines everywhere. 

Here we go again. The busiest time of the semester. These two weeks. 

Tue 1 Apr two assignments and a quiz. April Fools? By Thur 3 Apr need to decide whether I should accept the internship doing the app which I can't be confident about cos of the fact that everything will have to be picked up in 10 weeks and I won't be working with anyone else who can help in this aspect. If I reject will I really end up with no internship? Hoping hard for the other company to offer me by then... 

Also waiting for the sponsorship to come in is wrecking with my timings. 

FYP selection Tue 8 Apr. Is it going too fast? We'll be graduating so soon. What's going to happen if I can't convocate in time just cos I can't get an internship? What's going to happen during FYP year? Really have to think things through before thinking about running again. 

10 pack items, 11 Exam Welfare. 12 elective assignment due. Mon 14 3006 due, hall application closes. Need to find a roomie/ room to apply with/ for. 15 3003 assignment. 

The date of my first paper is also a very important birthday. zzzzzz. 

Ok time to put everything on hold till tomorrow. Marathon month. Let's go. 

I should get a degree for matchmaking. Seems that I have this ability to help people I like get together with other people. Good job.

Week 8. 

There's a lot of things going on in my mind right now. I can't really make sense of all of it. 

1. I'm always at the place where I feel I would always be around my friends, but somehow something still feels empty inside. And I have no idea how to fill that gap. 

2. I'm working hard, making up for those people who aren't doing their jobs. But I'm not superwoman. And you can't expect me to always suck it up and do everything. 

3. I can feel like we're really close one moment, and yet so far the next. It's almost as if we can both be acquaintances and best friends. 

4. There's fear that I can't find my internship. But in front of you all I have to curb my nervousness so that you won't have to fear for me too. 

How is it possible to feel so vulnerable, yet seem so strong at the same time?