chem is failed
even when i just finished paper 1 i knew it

skipped alot of mcqs
then couldnt finish the last 10qns so anyhow shaded 4 which leaves 6 blank
i know, i should have just shaded the rest quickly

missed one 20mark qn cos no time
and alot of blanks

i seriously seriously need to buck up now
before its too late

physics was okay
but i dont expect to do very well

chem tmr
argh i dont want study alr

seriously

i should, by right, be feeling scared now
but i feel oddly at peace
even though i havent finished studying, i didnt manage to do a single qn on the practice paper, and im probably going to fail

im just so tired, dont want to study alr

guess i should just sleep early and leave everything to fate

yup

okay summary of this holiday up till now

havent touched at all:
nuclear phy
gravitation
graphs
reaction kinetics

havent done qns at all:
MI
Gaseous state /solid state
vectors

havent finished qns:
probability
all distributions
functions
Sigma notation
AMS
Electrochemistry
current electricity
hydrocarbons
transformations
complex nos
ap, gp

argh this makes me so nervous

shall continue tmr
i have a feeline mid years are gg
but still have to work for the rest

and for those that i "finished", its just mcq
argh

very tired woke early for chem extra lesson
sleeping soon

i guess this is considered okay, i finished quantum 1 (though i still dont really get it)
atomic structure mcq
transformations
and the chem rev worksheet while made me feel like a failure

haha

shall sleep

5 more days
i MUST MUST catch up

idk whether i can actually keep to this, but lets try

no tv from 1.45-7.30
no games while doing qns, only during breaks
no food that causes hassle from lunch till 4, then 5 till dinner
i know this is slack, but its a small start, and i can progress alot faster without these distractions

oh, and sleep by 1, so that i wont be tired halfway through the day

yup

target: finish quantum 1, graphs, atomic structure and chem rev qns by tmr
i can do it this time

argh im VERY behind schedule

please, please concentrate tmr and finish up at least whats planned for tmr

need to buck up
seriously

'A's in 140 days
jiayou

i dont think i need help, i KNOW
everyone else just seems to cope so much better
and some things are really hard to understand
maybe not taking the crash course was a mistake
wells, will just have to try harder

im so scared
for some reason, everything i've studied up till now seems so little
and i cant recall doing any of it
mid years, then prelims, then As
omg i seriously need to buck up
like, now

what if i cant rmb it during mye too? ohno

so i slacked today away
sorry, i'll do better tmr
maybe i just need a break

overambitious
didnt manage to finish argh

tmr jiayou even more
dont slack!

so didnt do nuclear phy argh it seems to be a topic im avoiding alot

tmr's schedule, for some reason i had planned it super hiong
haha idk what i was thinking 3 weeks ago

electromagnetism
electric field
sigma notation
mathematical induction
atoms, molecules, stoichiometry
gaseous state

they may seem easy, but this is going to be a tough day
so many qns to do

jiayou

plus, its not like im very strong at these topics that other ppl seem to be able to cope with

anw shall sleep early to handle tmr
so that i wont doze off again

so i cant keep to my schedule
i mean, yea i try
and i manage to do abit of each topic i planned, but i cant finish it
argh

so yea, tmr's harder to cope with
cos nuclear
halogen, hydroxy
p&c
all these in tmr's schedule
i think just try to do as much as possible

looks like this hol is no time for relaxing
and neither is the next

anw, congrats
but i cant go

shall sleep soon
jy tmr will have to chiong

didnt really study today
but on the bright side, i managed to pack the stack standing by my study table for 2 years haha
shall start mugging tmr
like seriously doing qns and stuff alr

JIAYOU

haha where theres a will, theres a way

didnt finish ANYTHING today
it wasnt that i didnt manage to start
electrochem is just SO long

so yea
finish tmr
do gravitation
yupp and maybe abit of math

so i didnt manage to finish all that
only emi and what i had left of quantum from ytd
so yea

shall sleep earlier tonight
have to wake early tmr

failed today's schedule badly
didnt manage to finish ANYTHING
started reaction kinetics and quantum 1
but couldnt finish either
both topics are too tedious and maybe its only me, but hard to understand too

shall sleep soon

jiayou, dont be sad, at least u wont have any regrets later in life thinking what if
good luck to u too

shall attempt to finish 2 topics tmr, plus finish one of today's
must
this week ending soon

managed to finish ac
p&c
probability summary

target for tmr: reaction kinetics, quantum 1, binomial distribution
MUST finish all summaries except org chem by this week
and maybe nuclear phy, its a hard topic to summarise
plus, maybe abit of questions

yup

for all u unsure/ sad/ confused people
jiayou, we'll make it through
and things will end up okay somehow

okay fail, only finished dc
started ac but far from finishing
so yea
sleep now, do tmr
jiayou, same thing, target 3 topics tmr

summarised electromagnetism and complex nos today
jiayou must finish at least 3 tmr
and at least 2 must be science not maths

hmm shall sleep soon damn tired

finished intro to org chem summ
MUST work faster and harder
jiayou! everyone who's feeling under the weather, or just confused
there WILL be a way out no matter what

shall summ applications of buffer before i sleep
since i didnt ytd

i think can finish ionic equilibria today
jiayou, dont give up!
especially u, of all the people who need support and motivation
dont give up, not now
not even no matter how upset u feel or anything

managed to finish energetics part 2 also
chemical equilibria
current of electricity
and transformations
i know its not everything i said i would, but at least i tried, and managed to do sth productive.

seems like everyone has problems of their own.
jiayou greatgn! be brave and calm!
and all the best for all u people thinking abt stuff seriously
i hope it all comes through well

shall sleep soon
after wrapping up the transformations thing

am so tired
tired of studying
tired of being who u people want me to be
tired of making up nonexistent reasons for all that

its hard when other people have expectations
its harder when the people who want u to accomplish the most DONT have expectations of u
at least, thats what they tell u

now i have to focus

i think the stress which didnt appear in pri sch nor sec sch is finally starting to settle in
with the jc stress this adds up

wake up now, while its still early

went pepper lunch aft chem lec today

finally managed to finish lecture for chem
but still got tutorials to do
not now though, after myes

tmr's target (though it seems impossible) :
finish energetics summary
current of electricity
p&c
chemical and ionic equilibria

possibly probability and finish up transformations if have time
chances are, there wont be lol

wells, aim for the stars and if u fail, u may at least reach the sky
yupp
jiayou, im so behind my schedule
must buck up