going to watch countdown on tv
haha im not really sure about how i feel about welcoming 2009
wells

did more of the necklace
and watched tv, played com
am still bored now

did quite some stuff today
though i dont think it was very constructive
packed a little of my table
did the pink necklace till the part where i need the teardrop-like crystal
did the watch till left the buckle
took out stuff from a box

but i think i need to redo the watch cos i may not be using the buckle anymore

forgot to pack my clothes though
they're super messy

shall try to be more constructive and do more useful things this hol

found another one
yay its settled
finally

i like this one too

anyway woke up super early to go look at a room
then went to hougang pt to buy stuff
ate lunch there too

went to chinatown for materials for sis's jacket
had some fun looking at stuff to use with clothes
haha

so tired

i dont know whether to wear it or not

finally found clothes that looked right, not too 'mature' or casual
but they say it looks weird

anyway went out to look at rooms just now
it was boring cos we kept being told to sit
hmm

tired

went to farmart for vegetarian stuff
then to imm to eat and to the popular there

came home and played cards for dinner
went downstairs and ate thai food

went for christmas party at hongwei's
it was kinda fun

was super early and waited till the others arrived
the food was nice
there was ham and salad and pumpkin and carrots and 3 types of smoked salmon
and fried rice and prawns
i liked the punch, though i wasnt sure if i should drink more or drink coke
the mango and kiwi dressing were nice too
had tiramisu, then durian cake, then grapes
was so full at the end

watched a little tv during dinner and afterwards
also played charades and cards
hmm
it was a great party

merry christmas ppl

got this headache
maybe its cos i wet my hair when i was tying it

am tired

Dreamy Idealists are very cautious and therefore often appear shy and reserved to others. They share their rich emotional life and their passionate convictions with very few people. But one would be very much mistaken to judge them to be cool and reserved. They have a pronounced inner system of values and clear, honourable principles for which they are willing to sacrifice a great deal. Joan of Arc or Sir Galahad would have been good examples of this personality type. Dreamy Idealists are always at great pains to improve the world. They can be very considerate towards others and do a lot to support them and stand up for them. They are interested in their fellow beings, attentive and generous towards them. Once their enthusiasm for an issue or person is aroused, they can become tireless fighters. For Dreamy Idealists, practical things are not really so important. They only busy themselves with mundane everyday demands when absolutely necessary. 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But then, who would not like to see him-/herself mirrored as the perfect person in the eyes of a loving other? On the other hand, it is a real challenge to meet your ideal of love and romance in everyday life. Sooner or later, you are going to be disappointed to find out that you haven’t gotten a hold of an angel nor a superman, but just a normal person with all the inherent strengths and weaknesses. Now the question is, can you love your partner as he/she is and not as you would like for him/her to be?

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got a haircut today
haha i look different
and my hair is kinda hard to tie up now

anw did a few bookmarks

am super tired
woke up at 9 plus after sleeping at 1 am this morn
then went to the supermarket to buy veggies and meat
and to jurong birdpark
it was quite fun, considering i hadn't been there in almost 10 years
ate dinner at some vegetarian restaurant

apparently they didn't specify that it was cash only, so this table of people couldn't pay singdollars cos they thought credit card was accepted
they had cash from other countries
so the waitress- who couldn't understand english, had to ask for help in understanding what they were saying
it took almost 15min to settle the bill
finally, the people decided to pay with their cash and more than the exchange rate cos they were frustrated
hmm

going to do other stuff now

okay so we went out today
went to buy materials for more angels
then to look for clothes
who knew it was so hard to find formal clothes for me???
mum and dad found theirs alr
sis's is kinda easy, there were many but just a little over budget
one month passed alr, just two left
found so many nice ones but the shopkeepers said it was not the right age and that i should go in a tee
if i could go in a tee i wouldn't be fretting now would i

today was constructive
i saved my plants which were bending over and dying
managed to get them to stand properly after propping them up with sticks
the weird thing is, i don't know what to do with them when they grow fully
i'm growing kang kong
haha
added soil too
finally after being nagged to do so

anw helped sis to wrap all her books
whee and there was like so little plastic left
need to buy more when i get my books

also cooked this dish for dinner
it was nice, and it was all polished off at the end of dinner
yay
ham and bean sprouts and cucumber
haha i need to find something else to do tmr and the rest of the holiday

still want to go out

bought wrapping plastic at popular
also a few christmas cards
but too lazy to send them

anw helped sis to wrap more than half her books
then felt bored and decided to stop
hmms

anw i need sleep am super tired and stuff

didnt do much today
played games, watched tv

need to learn to sleep without turning and tossing too much

hmms went down to buy stuff with sis before heading to the playground
decided to go home soon after

anw went out for dinner cos dad wanted to eat teppanyaki
it was kinda fun i guess
haha

tried to do some part of my necklace
and tried on the watch again

now making this flower thingy for my sis while she's 'frying' beads
hmms
its always better to have a hobby

i need to turn on the air con or sth
its super hot tonight

anw i dno why i cant just decide and get it over and done with
argh

zd was fine
i passed
wells
considering that it takes 60% to pass, its okay
if it was counted like in sch, it'll be an a1
but it wasnt
what a pity

anw i still feel weird now abt no hw and stuff
haha

am tired again
packed the stuff around my bed
looks neater now

three more months
what to wear, what to wear

anw i need to go sleep soon

i seriously need to unpack some of those boxes
hmms

anw ytd was quite fun
took some pictures although it was raining
and at least took the boat ride
had lunch at kfc where there were all these cute chairs
haha

went zoo but left at 1 plus cos we were tired
only managed to walk till boat dock 2
hmms

anw woke up super early today

im super tired
hmms

anw went out to chinatown to look at prices
seriously

looked at books and went back for dinner afterwards
it was okay, just a little too much to eat

bought clothes too
hmm

still unpacked so little haha

okay went to get my ZDj cert just now
went to plaza sing afterwards
walked around with den a little before eating at mos burgers
haha its weird but everytime i think of hamburgers im reminded of a person saying hello im a hamburger
and that its true

went to yamaha and daiso and stuff
then decided to eat and go home afterwards

am tired now woke early this morn
night

i need sleep
hmm shall blog tmr

23 nov
went to some jap restaurant and had a super ex meal
at least i think it was ex
it costed normal but i wasnt really full
then went to buy stuff like instant noodles and mini packs of milk

24 nov
woke up super early and went to tsimdong to get my father's cousin to help with my dead laptop
unfortunately it didnt work
so we brought it to mongkok
it was funny cos they had 2 doors which led to the same small room
haha
and both doors were labelled differently
so cute
but apparently they needed time- around a week and we couldnt wait
so we went straight to the main office
then to taipo for dinner
in short, we travelled around hk in that day

25 nov
went to disneyland
again
this time we were bored early, almost went back to sleep but decided to stay for the fireworks
it was nice

26 nov
woke up early again to check out
went in again for awhile before going to another hotel
it was not as nice as i expected
but it was big
one room had 4 beds
so we went out again for dinner

27 nov
went to get my laptop back
then to my uncle's house for the camera
sis met some new friends there
but apparently shes not that social cos when they played she kept running back to us
then went back to put everything down before we went out for dinner again
then we seperated into 2 groups
one to the bookshop and the other to shop at garden street
haha until all the shops closed

28 nov
went to visit my mum's parents
stuck the two angels on and cleaned it a little
then went to the shopping centre nearby and bought a set of clothes
then passed by another shop and bought clothes for my sis
cos we didnt have enough long-sleeved clothes
that night, waited for dad's other cousin to send us home cos he wanted to talk to dad
it was freezing outside cos it was 11°C
we had only 2 layers and my face didnt have any protection
it was so cold

29 nov
met parents' sec sch friends
their son was super interested in my sis
even though he was almost half her age
he was all over her
haha scared her until she hid in the seat
and had to hide her cam too
had to admit, it would have been scary
then we went to have dinner with mum's side of the family
they were nice
although the meal wasnt that good cos it wasnt all-vegetarian and my aunts and uncle werent able to eat without picking out some of the food

30 nov
went to eat sth before 'breakfast' with my grandma
then ate some stuff and finished the box thingy for the angels
had dinner with my aunts and uncle again
only this time my cousins werent there
the meal was quite enjoyable
went back and slept earlier than the other days

1 dec
woke early so that we can at least eat breakfast before coming back
the trip back was full of turbulences
almost didnt dare to eat lunch
slept through most of it anyway

now my face and lips are super dry

havent been online in days. this thing is difficult to press so i shall blog again when im bck

the computer broke down and the other computer got virus so it can't let me play games....waaaaaahhhhhhhh

okay that was totally random cos my sis decided to add on to my blog post
wells

anw im still feeling really bored and stuff
to make it worse, i dont even know if its going to be fixed anytime soon
and im hungry again

anw tmr im going off
if theres anything u want sms me soon

wanna go out sometime?

my com is still down
wahhhhh)':
apparently it was super hard to test cos they didnt have the adapter thingy
so here i am, no msn and no games cos this com was just formatted recently and doesnt allow the games and stuff
I AM SO BORED AT HOME
good thing im going out on sun
till then, its a long wait...

my com broke down)':
wahhh
anw gtg soon since everyones using the same com now

made popcorn and packed a little today
head still spinning a little

oh jogged too
not a lot though, felt the heat getting to me

the medicine feels like its still stuck in my throat
argh

anw i got to try to wake later
keep having nightmares

am tired
why dont i feel energised?

hmm

went t3, old house there, and to hougang
whee its finally starting to feel like hol

haha the most unexpected people smsed me today
like people i dont even know, maybe just heard of once or twice

things dont happen exactly as you wish them to

anw went out for dinner with my family
walked around a little
leg muscles still painful

hmm i guess i shouldnt be waiting anymore

so unexpected
hmms

stomach hurts
hmm what did i eat lately?

legs also
i bet its cos i walked the steps ytd cos the lifts were not in use and then had to stand till somerset
plus the few hours of walking around during lunch
its cramping up
i guess i shld sleep early cos theres nth much to stay up for

took ZDj today
it was quite hard
couldnt do more than half the listening
and some of the compre
then also got oral
it was TERRIBLE
i couldnt ans most of the qns directly
had to make a big round to get to the point
argh

dno why head is throbbing now

had a really fun day
aft chem mcq we decided to go watch movie
actually decided long ago la
so we went bishan
found the theatres not opened yet
went to eat
can you believe it, i couldnt finish my hot and sour noodles
weird

then went to buy tickets
we saw this group of students going to watch sing to the dawn tgt
maybe it was a class outing or sth
decided to go have a walk since the movie wasnt going to start soon
then vlau decided to buy me a present
which in my opinion is still not cheap but wells
so we walked around abit more looking for christmas presents
then walked into the theatre just as the thing started to play

watched 20min of advertisements
abit..
then when we thought it was actually going to start, it just another advertisement
haha
the movie was nice though
hsm3
yup the songs were spectacular and stuff
and, being me, i cried a few times
even when some others dont think it was that sad
haha so went out to walk again
then decided to come home to look at exercises
and attempt to do them

till now, i think im not succeeding
but i guess this is as close to a celebration as im going to get

last O exam tmr
yay
but still got the zd on thur

hmm today was slack
after phy mcq, we waited at upper concourse for the huge rain to stop
it took an hour
even if i had an umbrella i didnt really want to go out in the rain

so we played weird games and stuff
reached home at 11 plus to eat chicken rice
then ate lunch afterwards (no chicken rice wasnt my lunch i just felt peckish)
haha

tried to sleep a few times but couldnt cos the airplanes were super loud today
woke me twice but i succeeded the third time
slept for 2 hours
hmm bet i cant fall asleep tonight

then did a bit of the exercises
ZD

such a slack day during Os
weird

phy mcq tmr
hmm

why am i still sleepy

okay 3 to go

lit was fine today, but unseen was quite hard

need to study faster

courage is 'when you know you're licked before you begin but you begin anyway and you see it through no matter what'
haha it just sounds right for lit paper

chinese
am tired

got a headache just now
shall sleep early tonight

walked a lot today
am so tired

went to photocopy the thing aft sch outside
33 pieces
then walked to return them
was wet, tired and everything
so decided to take a short nap on the bus
while i was in semi-asleep state, the guy asked my for my ezlink
i was damn embarrassed cos it took me awhile to realise i wasnt dreaming
haha

ss was fine
but i think i liked it more if i had rmbered the last point

okay spent today trying to get ss into my brain too
i think it didnt work

went out for dinner but spent the morning trying to digest ss

i dont know why i feel so tired lately
haha

am tired
shall start studying ss tmr

emaths was fine, except i didnt realise i didnt do the last page till left 15 min only

physics was, well creative
some things were so application that i couldnt do

anw got to sleep early again today

havent finished phy yet
argh why cant i read faster

anw shall sleep early tonight

okay its lousy i cant do it right

shall go find sth i can do right to do

couldnt fall asleep last night
maybe cos of the 3 slices of chocolate cake
haha

still tired after sleeping
and now got a stomachache too
argh

anw shall go sleep soon

emaths and germ compo are fine
but i feel sad abt amaths
sort of anyway
was easy to some but i couldnt finish

haha maybe i should study now

sleepy sleep
anw geog wasnt that bad except the last 2 qns
argh

today was tiring
fell asleep on the bus on the way home from moelc listening
then again on the way to school
eng paper 1 was hard for me
cos it was so unexpected
paper 2 was okay not too bad
need sleep

today was fine i guess
though im not really sure

german listening tmr is the hard one
then there'll be eng after that

chem was, unexpected
cos its really hard to tell if my answers are right or wrong
but the electrolysis qn was like, unexpected cos it really extended

i feel totally unsettled now
wth is wrong with me Os is just tmr and im here thinking abt how to finish studying for chem

had sleeplessness for nights alr please let me sleep well tonight so that i wont feel sleepy during the exams

one last day to hope im prepared
haha u can say its my fault i didnt continue studying after i started at the beginning of the year
or that i deserve whatever grade im getting
but i think maybe its gg to turn out differently

wasted today away
argh

3 days
i dont think im ready
am exhausted how much longer do i have to do this?

maybe its the last official german lesson i'll ever have

cant finish either chem, geog, amaths or germ
got to sacrifice one at least

yea i know
im really studying

5 days
have german, amaths, half of chem and half of geog left to study
oh and eng next week too

finished bonding and QA
so can see that im quite slow
yea

sis is irritated cos i insisted on her not playing cooking on the website but actually practising for her exams tmr
haha i mean, u should see the game

so anw trying to finish coasts by today

okay so went for a ride to see where the centre is
then ate at great world city
am tired
havent really studied today
argh

tired

last day of formal school
hope i try harder in future

okay so woke at 3 am and felt really unwell
haha so stayed at home again
need to sleep soon to prevent the headache from getting worse too
so much for eating more to feel better
it was either indigestion or stress that caused vomiting

still havent eaten the chocolate
but i want to
just cant find a good time for it

just when i walked out, a wave of helplessness hit me
felt so lonely and still

u're right i do eat alot

so i went to the supermarket and bought a bar of chocolate
planned on eating it aft i do what i needed to
so i reached home, ate the remainder of my breakfast(bread), then ate a pack of chips, then a pack of seaweed, then finally decided to stop when the table was being laid out
my chocolate is still in my bag
maybe thats why im not feeling much better now
cos i didnt eat it
haha
shall go do maths now
vielleicht ist es meine Schuld

oral tmr
calm and energised
scared the chocolate will cause insomnia tonight though

wl eh
okay i might have expected this from the start
but it didnt occur to me that it'll actually happen

anw i solved the darn maths qn
with my father's help of course
haha
but still, its an accomplishment to be even able to get the ans

did emaths paper
but still got at least 2 geog, 2 eng, 2 lit, 2 ss, chem and other stuff to finish
2 weeks to 'o's and i havent had time to study geog and lit and maths and chem and physics and german yet

did like most of the papers due today
but still lagging behind cos havent studied for geog and emaths and german and lit and phy and chem
am really tired

okay i need to do ss, lit and maths papers
and eng compo
argh why ask us to study hard till 'o's when we dont even have time as we have to do dno how many papers a day and go home late
cant even study when i want to

cant assume everyone knows everything alr and just needs to do papers when i dont even have time to revise what i learnt to do those papers
whats the use
not whatever will be, will be anymore

still got maths papers to do

bought a lexikon today
hope it helps

sleepy

couldnt sleep well last night cos was having this stomachache and everytime i almost fell asleep it woke me up again
woke up late this morn too

went out for sis's birthday party
but brought my laptop along
so i was studying with my ears plugged to the computer's music
haha

anw i gtg attempt to finish venice and pack for tmr

okay havent really studied after lunch
went out cos she needed shoes, then aft coming back had dinner not long later
and was doing other stuff just now

even more pissed now
cos her little friends want to go with us for the thing tmr
i have 2 choices now:
1. lug my heavy laptop by mrt there and attempt to study in the midst of their noisy activities
2. not study and waste my sunday away- cant finish studying ss and amaths by this week if thats the case

irritating
sometimes i feel like its not impt for me to study but everything else is

everytime also like that one
we walk into a place with clothes, she walks quickly through it, comes back and asks, do u have anything to buy?
since shes not interested, she looks impatient and all that i can say is, no
its happened so many times alr
i feel so pissed

okay im really really sleepy
but i must finish that part of Venice by today or i'll never finish the rest

shall go do eng cos we got it today and apparently due tmr

how can i finish ss?
argh

sleepy
argh cant study properly cos am too tired but cant fall asleep cos am top nervous abt not being able to study
its a vicious cycle

am still sleepy
shall sleep earlier tonight
i hope

finished globalisation ytd but couldnt finish venice today
argh jy jy 5 more days to do venice, conflict, and bonding s'pore
and amaths
for now, i'll sleep first
hope she'll rmb shoes
and they wont pinch
pinchy shoes are really hard to walk in
haha jy to all taking exams

btw went home with sher again

okay so i think i can finish that chap by today
maybe only when sense is knocked hard into me and i feel guilty will i work
haha

they've been playing mahjong the whole morning since we ate breakfast
and its quite hard to study when u keep hearing the shuffling sound
lets count starting from now while im studying
hmm

6:04
got one just now i didnt hear when exactly
6:21
6:23
6:29
having dinner now, as in them
haha okay so the other neighbors came back so they had to keep all their chairs and their clothsline which was outside

i was playing
but everytime i start i feel unsettled and feel like i shld be studying
so i dont end up playing or studying much
i guess

maybe im supp to be happy now
but cant help feeling abit uneasy
it just means we're getting nearer to 'o's

i dno why im so tired
slept for over 11 hrs but ended up almost falling asleep on the mrt and during german
but didnt fall asleep i think i held out super hard
tmr how

32 days
got this headache again
tried panadol twice alr

am seriously sleepy
cant sleep during phy tmr
come on, wake up and at least finish reading the tb

did a bit more of ss
argh emaths and phy how

studied abit of ss
emaths ar, not interested yet
phy also
then its OVER
yay

still tired argh whats wrong with me

amaths
not good

okay shall go sleep soon
really sleepy

lit was erm, not very ideal
yea amath again tmr

argh cant sign in again
and cant find lit notes
uh oh
shall sleep soon and stop worrying

okay i shall sleep at 11 sharp tonight or not will end up falling asleep during exam
qualitative analysis and bonding and stuff
argh

okay am tired fell asleep while studying
haha shall continue in a min
wont finish
wasted half a week, cant finish la

cant grasp the concepts
argh exam tmr and im not prepared

still not feeling very well
but managed to read some of the tys today
i think

she said dont go on mon
haha do i listen?

amaths is so hard

head still pain
argh havent studied yet what do i do

not feeling much better
another day wasted
argh prelims next wk

felt really really hot at 2am
waited till 8 to see the doctor
apparently its a viral infection
but one day was just wasted like that
every little thing i ate/ drank, i threw it back up
7 times alr
still havent studied for amath, chem, and more than half of geog
and lit
argh still feel weak, shall sleep early tonight

am super cold
was freezing in the living room just now before i bathed
then when i bathed it felt like i was burnt cos the water was so warm
brrr

must get warmer

day one
finished till chap 5
cont

okay starts tmr
sleep tight

okay am fine now

its just that, i feel sometimes things are so biased

dont wanna study today either

why cant some ppl not criticise others everyday?
am damn pissed can other ppl are entitled to their own opinions u know
it just sounds too condescending

just because u're in a bad mood doesnt give u a right to put others down
people have pride u know

it was like that last night, it was like that this morn, even now

no studying today

i have never felt so down cos of germ before
this could be the first of many
hope not

i thought even though mundliche and aufsatz were bad, at least i still had leseverstaednis and hoerverstaednis left
but no, its all gone now

okay i seriously need to study harder what is wrong with me now

shall go sleep soon, like it says, tmr will be better:|

am really tired and stomach pains acting up again
feel so pissed sometimes

argh

am really tired
shall stop studying for tonight and start again tmr
jiayou

i didnt sleep during the thing
haha

study germ after bathing
and stuff

oral was fine i guess
except i kept going 'wie bitte?'

okay so went to see fireworks last night
not a very good time to do so cos its before prelims
haha

so was studying this whole morn
and when i reached home
cant do it la tmr got oral alr

k am tired and everything
shall just pack my hw so that i know what to do
then shall go to sleep

so anw took class photo cos its the last day before prelims and stuff

still coughing
anw had the red eyes thing during recess which made me look like i was crying, so i was told

went 3rd lang with kim and apparently she alr had the lesson ytd so it was really not very relevant

tired

need to do hw
and sleep
which one, which one

overstudying is flushing away part of me
argh cant balance properly
either end up studying too much or end up slacking too much

am really tired

chi ws
eng handouts and compres
math test
am paper
geog paper
german brief

i know i lack sleep cos i felt really giddy on the bus today

shall study abit of math then maybe read through geog as a reminder
eyes are still reddish but no more stomach pains

woke up quite late so went for teppanyaki lunch
its damn nice

okay so did a bit of chem and stuff but im sian

okay so went out to mums office again for lunch
then to farmart cos sis wanted to feed animals
and then discov. centre where we didnt do anything until we decided to go sci centre instead
ate there
and slept on the way home cos woke up early today and couldnt fall asleep again

need to charge my stuff now

tired
went for morning jog faster than usual
aft sch had oral 'o's it was damn tiring
then went on to do papparazi-ing

haha maybe its worth it

am still coughing like what
just didnt cough during oral which was good cos i bet the impression wld be pretty deep if i ended up coughing like tt during oral

lit argh
and im doing it
most of it anw

eyes still red
but dno if its the same prob as ytd or cos ich habe geweint
but i think im fine now

eng lit lit lit lit math chem phy phy ss geog german
argh

need to concentrate
67 days left i think
hmm..

ich wunsche, dass sie hier waren
aber Träume werden nicht wahr

do lit first, then play afterwards
like seriously, go

just dont feel like it
had i known earlier, i'd have gone for it

red eyes for some reason
hope it feels better tmr or i'd be blinking alot times more

chi eng amath emath chem phy ss geog german
how can i except myself to cope when no one else expects me to?

jiayou ba no one else can motivate me now

guess i should do math first now

not free
lit and math and tests

argh

anw am super tired now so..

doing lit
whee?

anw baked cookies again but they were quite soft and took time to harden
maybe its cos we didnt use ghee

went out and ate steamboat
and had meine haare geschnitten

cant stop coughing argh

stop coughing la

anw was quite enttäuscht today cos of a few things la
yanni came back for awhile and left soon after

and another thing, who knows how many more weeks before can talk and stuff again cos of the upcoming camps and stuff

and still have to write letter and compos

tired and sore throat from singing and stuff during recess
tmr still got more
haha i like our classroom

slp soon lor

tired
chem test tmr
and 3rd lang look at me

spent the whole aftnn on class deco

argh
at least my conscience is clear

work harder

75 argh
i realised im super prone to illnesses lately
diarrhea now

at least lit is postponed

am coughing again theres this stuff that keeps irritating my throat
argh

stupid essays
stupid tests i cant cope anm la still got 3rd lang tmr
suddenly feel so tired

study ss, math, do lit SEVEN qns

chinese ws
lit SEVEN qns
lit mastering the unseen
chem
physics?
maths

argh

sleep

cant open messenger

so had stomach pains the whole day and spent most of it running to the toilet
argh

yea its all my fault again can
are u happy now
im the disturber and u're the one with an impt tingxie and i have a totally unimpt physics test tmr

okay ive cooled off
off to finish phy before i slp again
hope i wont fall asleep in class
just feel so tired

felt really hot this morn
then mum took temp and told me not to go sch

so i spent most of the day sleeping and lying on the sofa cos was feeling woozy
and there was this part of me that kept telling me to sleep though i knew i wouldnt be able to sleep tonight if i had taken a nap

missed chem spa i wonder what i should do now

head pains
still go math
go sleep soon i guess

am not very free
math and geog
then lit and phy
and try to go down tmr

i dont think i shld even be here why am i here go study geog

busy now
doing cme and stuff

went out to toa payoh
got some neccessities
then went to hougang pt for stuff like groceries

need to go do hw
things tt are more urgent:
lit msnd
chem spa prac
chem structured
phy ws 22

geog test
emath
amath
chem study spa
germ hw

i miss ixora
keep having to miss meetings too

hw:
chi ws
chi copy thing
situational prep
lit msnd compilation
and get this- SEVEN lit essays by next next week
lit test next tue
emath on tue
amath on wed
chem spa skill 3
chem structured qns
chem spa skill 3 prac
phy ws 22
geog test
germ aufsatz and prep for next week

am seriously worn out liao
cant help counting stop it la doctor says dont do it anymore
says that its bad for health
and prob part of the cause for the gastric pains
though its still the acid story

haha i need sleeeeeep

okay so my list of hw?
chi
lit
chem
ss
hmm how to sort how to sort

phy due next week
and 6 tests
WHEE???

if my stomach doesnt act up tmr i'd be doing what i did last week

88 days
less than 10 days for each subject left
and im still not coping well

i really want to be there

eng compre
chem structured
geog mindmap
germ compo

just had a really bad stomachache just now
think i ate too much/ ate sth wrong

how can i relax when some ppl are already at full speed and sprinting towards their goal while im still panting and barely jogging?

im sry if i have been moody lately
i just keep getting upset over simplest things
like too emo i guess
pls tell me if im bothering u, i feel overloaded

thanks for being understanding

wth is wrong with me again
argh

5 lit qns and math test tmr

argh ss and math
tmr pat meeting may have to miss
wahhh

6th time
okay im tired need to study still

math phy and chi
due tmr
then lit on tue
argh

am bored
ok actually i have many things im supp to do but dont feel like it
bet that we'll burnout before Os actually arrive
haha
oral prelim on mon
dont want to study leh 92 days what happened to the psa supposedly being able to motivate us?

haha

work harder i cant slack now

k so had a super tiring day
then went to watch pt afterwards and saw tracy and rachael and shermaine and xinying
the rest were hidden by pillars or sth
so went up to cp's class for candles
then saw them falling in
took pictures until nienping saw us, whoops
which led to sth really malu haha
i cant believe i did that now
wells

so i shall write more in my diary cos i dno if i want everyone who comes here to see what i want to say aft this..

phy test tmr
jiayou me

its like we're slowly drifting apart and it almost never happened
i wont hope too much, it seems so familiar
i wont be emo abt this, at least i wish until after Os
my priority: Os
short term goal: do well in phy

its not that i never tried u know
maybe i should have quit in sec 2
its starting to take its toll on me

study study study

anw went home with her ytd and some really nice things happened
it was different, in a good way

but now, dont do other stuff. study phy

am busy now
but will say all the stuff later

thanks, for everything
that made me feel a lot better

am feeling down again
somehow the thought of leaving scares me
so many what ifs
so hard to decide

work hard and stop emoing 96 days left
and im still not awake

i promise me, i'll try my best to do what i can
even if im gg to slack im gg to slack wisely

still got the chengyu to recopy over and over again
the chi ws
situational writing
5 lit msnd qns
the fat black lady goes shopping ans
and germ hw
wells looks like there goes another night

tests
lit, amath, phy and geog
math and chem

work harder im not at that step yet

k so we went to the bottle tree park and fished
stayed there for the whole afternoon before eating dinner
but got a huge headache afterwards
then went and sat in swan boats
gtg feeling giddy

loads of hw
101 days
argh i am still not motivated

daffodils
summary
5 msnd essays
and tests

jiayou dont break down still got 100+ days to go

eng compre
lit daffodils
lit 5 essays
tests
revise! 102 days left

i feel pissed now
so me singing is irritating but her repeating 'is tom hungry? the food looks delicious' to her voice recorder is a hobby???

i need to study for chi and math
someone calm me down

i am soo smart
cant believe i cant find my geog tb
argh
tmrs the test
im so sorry if i cant be there for pat meeting tmr

wl wheres my geog tb i am quite sure i packed it
but where did i put it
weird
i wish it would pop up in my stack of books later when i try to find it again

meanwhile, shall study for ss and math first
and maybe chi chengyu test if i have time
i mean, 126-250?? so many

yepp im still not awake
someone shake me harder

got a new phone today
though its not very nice and it was super hard to get all the smses into it
its more reactive and easier to type
and wells, its a change i need to adapt to

so anw i stopped emoing today
i hope its till aft 'o's

anyone has the song pass it on?

wl everytime sth else happens
i cant help but have more sleepless nights
ich weinte, und ich will mehr weinen
so anw had a whole day of stomach pains
but managed to study a bit of ss
haha

so i woke up and had pains at 8 am
then i cldnt sleep again cos it was so painful and i had a late night ytd
so had panda eyes
wait correct that
i still have them

i miss the weird jokes and games alr
when will it stop
its taking me way too long to stop emoing abt it

today, long day

ok so had morning jog and caused stomach pains the whole morn
then had lit and chi and math
lunch was short and tiring cos had to study for phy spa
was still having stomach pains
then phy spa
i know i did it wrongly what with no sandpaper and no distance its all gone
my marks are all gone
only 4 marks its gone
so then had chi
was quite slack but got scolded cos very noisy and stuff
then went down, a little too early for promotion
so sat at the quad
memories kept flooding back
hearing the whistle and seeing ppl running to fall in
tests
haha i promised myself i wld stop being emo aft farewell
so anw then went down to the specs stand
saw this funny part where the women were blocking the whole way
haha
sat there while watching the enrolment ceremony
and stood for the colours
somehow it felt like all too different
not being down there anymore
being part of it all
then they fell out
and moved up to the specs stand
sat there hoping, wishing that things will be alright
and suddenly was reminded of our first year, second, third
it felt all too familiar
i guess all that i want to say is that, at the end of it all, its not really the rank that matters, but what u did to contribute
'silently each guide should ask, have i done my daily task
have i kept my honour bright, shall i guiltless sleep tonight'
so cheered through the thing cos it was so anti climax
and then went to hug patrol ppl
haha and i mentioned i wouldnt be emo again
but i did
and aft tt i sudd rmbered everything that had happened so quickly
and i couldnt stop the tears from coming
but i could stop it aft it came
it was so hard
at the start of the 4 years
i rmb there was a shift in patrols
i didnt understand why the ppl were crying so sadly
or why they hugged and refused to leave
and now i know
its just too hard to let go suddenly
like yanni says
it'll fade with time
i hope so too
and i really hope i can snap out of it in time to study for 'o's and everything before i get into this mood again
it just seemed so easy over the years to take it all for granted
guides
its given me friends, hope and a chance
thanks guys
IXORA I LOVE U
kaifong, sonya, kelly, cheryl, yanni, jieying, charis, chinpei, me, felicia, qimin, rachael, huishan, justine, shakes, crystal, jinny, jaclyn, vanessa...
hope the new batch will keep the guiding light shining bright
but for now, i shall just sleep and try not to emo till end of 'o's
'hmm here comes september
hmm i will remember, the campfire nights and friendships true
hmm and as the years go by
hmm i think of you and sigh
its just goodnight and not goodbye'

phy spa tmr
i am not motivated
argh someone wake me up pls

i hate thursday
its alw the stuff all lumped tgt u know im not happy abt it

if im moody again tmr theres nth much that can help
shall hug my crocodile and sleep tonight

maybe im supp to be too old for that
but i dont have much of a choice

ytd u were happy werent u
i wasnt

i should stop being upset over small things and just study
so few days left
help

lit math and geog tmr
math and chi chengyu and phy spa on wed
chem on thur
so far i know that

i want sleep

another weekends over
wahhh

ok i just cant concentrate wth is wrong with me now
maybe im just not cut out for sch

tired
another day of standing
at least i got the recommended dose of vitamin d in the sun
haha

anw i gtg do hw

its so stuffy in here without any wind

chi eng elit math amath chem phy geog ss germ
got chi, math, amath, chem, phy spa and geog test next week
argh i barely can do anything other than think abt hw

and im still not nearing my peak yet omg whats happening to me i cant force myself to study hard and theres only 114 days left

:'s

mock test
reflection
math
lit

im not in a good mood now
thanks to whatever may happen tmr

vectors tmr
and the mtu bk
chem hw
argh

8 lit essays
mastering the unseen book
chi
chem chem
phy phy phy
math test
ss test
geog test
german essay
argh

need to go do hw
must finish chi, phy and chem by tmr

went to do cip today
am super tired now
i know i prob shouldnt have gone out well knowing i havent finished hw
but its a commitment

jy jy do hw faster

still have loads undone

i think
no time
ich soll dieses post in deutsch schreiben, weil meine schwester schaut an
lala sie kann nicht verstehen hehe

ok shall stop being lame and go to do stuff

went for a short break
now i think im out of time alr
chi lit lit lit and more lit chem phy and germ
i think theres more
but for now, concentrate

k went for the luge ride
beach
and a nice dinner
also went to 4d magix
and some other places
the highlight was on mon,
we went for the preview of get smart cos mum's friend had many tickets
there were so many artistes and everything
then when we left the person driving behind us was another artiste
it was quite weird to just see so many of them at a time thats all, not very surprising
then went for luge ride on third day again
sis was so reluctant to leave when we were done
haha

spent today printing stuff
and attempting chi

haha i should stop emoing right about now

camp was fun
day 1:
set up with the red patrol and tried to help
though i still think i failed miserably
spent the initiation games time trying to finish
but still didnt
lunch was chicken rice
it was quite nice and stuff
then dinner had to cook with solid fuel
the smell was choking and i could feel the headache worsening but they didnt allow panadol so..
went for night trail where we only got one patrol
haha it was quite scary sitting alone there when lights were being turned off by teachers and other people
slept at around 2am
wait this should belong to day 2 alr
haha

day 2:
tried to do a little more in the room but didnt succeed
so tried to sleep instead
kim and cp were having this long and lame discussion which i later heard was interrupted
yup
so woke around 5 and lazed a bit in the sleeping bag before finally deciding to go out
spent almost the whole day at campfire prep
was quite scared cos the thing was flying and not very stable
well it turned out ok afterwards
fel came too, just when the first batch arrived
campfire was ok, except that it was quite distracting at times
so spent the time after that taking down the gateway
at least i got pictures before it was taken down
yea slept a little earlier cos we were supp to

day 3:
had inspection before breakfast
then helped to carry some gateway poles
but left while they packing to help addams family
then after some time we had some free time after the tents were packed
i cant believe i could have finished but actually fell asleep for an hour just sitting there
argh
farewell was ok at the start until we started emoing at the patrol part
haha i guess its all part of it la
it was quite embarrassing cos i was all messy and everything
most of the people in our patrol was crying too
maybe cos they see us crying or sth
but it made me want to cry more.
gave out presents afterwards while waiting to take level pic
but end up also never take
sorry it was so last min.

aiyah as a first aider i think i was quite shi bai too
some people come and i have absolutely no idea what to do with their wounds
so i was quite redundant at times
yea and i think i was overly luo suo
i dont know what i should have done instead

yea i hope this isnt the end yet, just like a comma in our lives
like we will still keep in contact and stuff
wl stop emoing
get to work

its just goodnight and not goodbye

argh this is getting irritating

still not at all prepared
not enough socks, shorts and stuff
weirdly enough, i have more than enough shirts
wells

and i found my PONCHO
heehee
underneath my gloves
far hidden away from socks

aufsatz training was ok
i just hope there was an easier way

still have no idea what to do first

sry for forgetting

argh

tired still

dont be pessimistic
theres a week more
work faster la

lala

today some lizard was squished

haha
k for details ask, sis doesnt want to know and shes reading

argh
its at the border

can wake late tmr!!!

yay

math phy

tired

ss and phy

still not very energised

hw
test

slept at 2
had a splitting headache this morn

now still giddy but not bad

went for lessons for the whole day

then came out with kim to eat at macs and i finished the points
or tried to

then went to kb to learn the dance cos py taught me abit alr
then to the bbq pit near the playground near her house
walked home afterwards

went home and went out again to fetch cousin
he went out with his friends so talked abit and finally went out again
so tired
then ate vegetarian dinner for quite some time
just reached home and im sleepy
the hotel was quite nicely decorated
but the room was a little small

yea okay i will sleep soundly
excuses
night

the video is super funny

k i need to do other stuff


even the hairdressing shop is open, which makes 3 shops so far

trying to redo the mini pioneering thing but only did tripods so far
no time
the sticks are nicer though

physics, chem, geog hw

tired and exhausted
work harder!

sleepy
went to the wedding today
the food was nice but i couldnt get any pictures cos we went to the toilet at the wrong time

need to finish typing by today so tt i have stuff to do tmr

still tired
and muscle pains are acting even when im wringing the towel or just combing my hair or even when i opening a bottle cap
argh

woke up early again
went to macs for breakfast before gg for gateway

anw gateway was quite fun cos i didnt have to do much
but also super tiring cos we had to lift the thing high up for such long periods of time and its very heavy and have to tie very tightly or it will slide down

then went to chicken rice stall for lunch
asked for veggies only
haha can leh
but looked so weird to others

couldnt finish
had to go home so early

so now, muscle ache, everywhere not covered by pe attire is very red and slightly darker
have a headache too
every time i hold something hard or touch warm water hands feel like burning
looks like i need alot more rest
but cant now cos tmr is hw day and sun need to attend wedding so today have to finish other stuff first

btw the spectacle shop and ntuc opened alr
ntuc was ytd and spec was today
ntuc is 24 hrs so convenient(:

true love doesnt have endings

anw im tired tmr gtg to sch

lit geog phy

cant find it
argh

mum's not well
gtg

got the pieces in the wrong place
argh
first piece was wrong so there goes the whole thing

am tired
never going to be able to finish on time

so sian nowadays
what happened to being motivated? it didnt seem to help

last day of guides session
only 3 things left:
gateway, campfire, farewell
in a way they are somehow related
wells

almost wanted to cry but didnt
cant let her see it right

treasure this last month

work hard
and get good grades

感激伤害你的人，因为他磨练了你的心志
感激欺骗你的人，因为他增进了你的见识
感激鞭打你的人，因为他消除了你的业障
感激遗弃你的人，因为他教导了你应自立
感激绊倒你的人，因为他强化了你的能力
感激斥责你的人，因为他助长了你的定慧

thank you loads

anw have hw to do
so bye

slept on the way home
neck hurts now

last guides session

i need time

anw fell asleep again
WAKE UP WAKE UP WHATS WRONG WITH ME

i wish i could sleep well at night and wake well in the morning

cant believe im becoming lame too

chi phy
argh guilty of ponning
haha

still have hw
its a never ending cycle

am tired
seriously
who says weekends are for sleeping?

am super tired
slept during math
and had morning jog, pe then footdrill and badge ceremony
took flag etiquette too
am so tired

nite

chi jb
elit holhw
math tys
geog and lit tests
ssfile

tired
woke up with almost blood shot eyes this morn
had to catch a nap in the car before i look normal aft tt in sch

i need help

chinesisch: elf bis siebzehn
mathe: pruefung und misc achtzehn
chemie: elektrolysis
physik: pruefung
erdkunde: mindmap
deutsch: pruefung

OH AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOU
SORRY TOO
ZUM GEBURTSTAG VIEL GLUEK> ALLES GUTE ZUM GEBURTSTAG

ss chem and guides
prioritise!

wl

chi lit math math chem chem ss phy germ
argh

i feel so pissed now
i spent hrs recording my notes so tt i can hear it on the bus and stuff
and now? the thing has to spoil NOW
2 days before the exam
what do u want me to do?

chi chi math math phy phy chem chem
weird all the hw is doubled

phy or chi or math first?
hmm

won a hammer today
yea i know it sounds weird but its true lala

am sleepy and hw is still sitting there waiting to be done
a little too patiently i may add

whee

ok so i ran today
CANT BELIEVE MY SHOELACES CAME OFF SO UNFAIR

had guides then waited for super long to go home
but managed to be faster than the banana and orange
haha

im swamped
all the notes organisation and hw
chi math and atmosphere due tmr

jy pre prelims are next week
audio learning first

trying all the ways now
jy

chem phy chi math and testimonial

anw i finally figured out a way to beat the guy
haha yay

im tired
cant think of anything to write on testimonial
argh

-edited-
tired
still havent done testimonial
what can i write anw

i think i suit the personality thing
except i think im even brained cos i need both to rmb stuff

need to go study now
i may not be motivated, but im aware of the little time i have left
176/10= 17.6 days ~17 days left for each subject
jy

last day
i need more time to finish

today was fun
but the part when she talked aft the break was embarrassing cos she talked abt hobbys and suddenly everyone knew i was doing what she was saying
weird...

am tired

dont want to go tmr

2 days left i have no time to finish

found a way to work it
haha

irgendwie irgendwo irgendwann

we've got a german songs cd
but apparently our system doesnt support it

so anw im running tmr
whee

add phy to my list

im sleepy

got... a... cold
look like rudolph now

kopfschmerzen too
und gestern habe ich bauchschmerzen
owa

lit was okay
but the rooms were cold and i used packets of tissue

chi elittest misc17 ex178.1 atmospherews electriccellws electrolysisws geoggraded
whee im so dead tmr still have to go airport

so i just came back from campfire

did 7 rounds today
was so tired aft tt tt i felt giddy

campfire was ok
considering how i was feeling ytd
yea

im just not in the mood okay
ive alr talked plenty
.
thanks alot man
wl

here goes everything

went home with rachel just now

tried 74

walked the wrong way though
thought tt i wld be faster going by the quartz way but ended up walking longer and finally deciding to walk the same way
reached home quite tired
am not only sleeping in cls
also when im reading, or even just before dinner
see? im not slping for the sake of it
unlike some ppl who only slp in cls
i really am tired this time

gg off soon

i dno la
i really want but cannot la

germ was fun cos the radio was making weird sounds
on purpose
but we did the ws anw
and it turned out fine

i need sleep
and time

im sian sian sian

dno what to do now
hw or plan tmr's stuff

not free now

need to work faster
still got many pres to prepare

had initiative just now
learnt how to fold paper flower again
haha it was so amusing cos the person's hands went up halfway and no one saw how she/ he folded tt part then everyone crowded around to try to fold again

i srsly think tt not many ppl will actually pay for it can

k gtg and print germ stuff

chi chem math

couldnt finish chem
argh

math tmr

still have to prepare for the pre- prelim for germ
its on 6,8/5 can
3 weeks away
so close

anw went to compass pt with sher again
this time for ziplocks

i want to sleep

differentiation
yea right

thur again
lit then geog then math test then recess
then eng speech and another period of math
then assembly
argh argh argh
then maybe got remedial
and 3rd lang
another exhausting day

chem test tmr
somehow i dont feel like working now

why is th red list so long
its scaring me too
but its easier to gauge with it
go us

got campfire next fri

so anw waited for quite long aft sch
cos it supposedly takes 15min to walk from class to father barre

took 76 with sher and changed for 156
reached compass pt around 3 sth 4
walked a little before gg to macs for lunch
ate till 4 sth 5 and walked home with her
wasnt tt far actually
it looked quite far on the map
maybe i shld go punggol park soon too

finished phy spa today
am high high high
cos i got the same ans
lala

tmr got pat meeting again
shall do some chi then prepare to write a little in 'the book' then slack and sleep
haha yay

feel very down today

so call it whatever u want
but i feel like im being replaced

yea the eng speech the topic right
twos company and three is none
haha not mine la

elit is top priority now

haha was reading rd

chi elit math chem phy geog ss

wells thats a long list for a weekend
oh and germ too

was asked to help with tentage

had morn jog then pe
then math and recess
chem eng elit and another period of math

it was so exhausting

anw during guides just now i wasnt really sure la
as in i only pitched once before right

tired now
shall do abit of geog then slp

neither am i

ich habe mit meiner eltern gestritten
weil sie unbillig waren

yea like i have time to watch the show tmr aft sch

warum können sie mich verstanden?
ich habe keine zeit, keine zeit jetzt
es ist schwerig, dass sie Verständnis für mich nicht haben

vielleicht soll ich hart lernen
dann mehr essen
oder weniger essen

i dont want to go
no one

haha ok i love typing
i think

chi elit math math geog ss

not free

tired and sweaty

chi elit math math ss
geog

stomach pains

anw stayed at home most of the day and ended up going out for dinner

have been eating 2 meals a day recently
or two big and one really small meal

anw walked aft dinner and digested some of the food before coming home
am still tired though slept 12 hrs last night

fiesta was okay i guess
woke super early to go
then when we reached doors werent even open yet

so anw worked throughout the shift except when i went to get plastic bags
apparently theres a lot to do just to get them

ate this really huge slice of pizza and threw away the last part
it was so big

watched chloe para then went down to register
went up and did some stuff before coming down again
the no. was like a hundred ppl away can
so the run was quite funny cos it was like chloe ran with yanyi first then yy passed to hongwei but continued running
then they continued to hiutung who recieved it with the others still behind
then to vanessa who was still wearing her ears and tail
then to me and chiaying
so in total they ran one and one quarter rounds
haha

went off to waste time by trying to rearrange stuff in the jumble sale
the woman was saying that they must be seeable and neat
so i was like rearranging every few min

then went out again and found hw and yy and ht
played some games and won some stuff

went back again to do stuff cos i had spent the coupons i had and was waiting for parents to come with the rest of them
then played more games but wasnt as lucky
kept missing la

went back to hall and i was watching the cashier cos the others went to watch cheerleading
parents were trying to use the rest of their coupons

was starving when i got home
and tired

so now im gg to get ready to rest aft hair dries
whee

ist deine mutter ok jetzt?

still slacking
only 202 days left

look, i dont know okay

chi math
geog ss emath

i need to sleep

why no pat meeting on fri?

chi elit math ss

i need sleep

busy

edited..
left chi eng elit phy and geog
but not really in the mood now

ich habe bauchschmerzen

how abt my hw

went out today
exploring
punggol plaza and fernvale pt
there was loads to see..

need to START GETTING MOTIVATED
argh i just cant get the feeling

no more cotton fibre!!!!
how

argh cant find the stupid piece of paper

lit math chem phy ss
wow it seems lighter than ytd

was hat passiert?
whatever may be, ich werde da sein
du kannst mir vertrauen

lit draft
math tys
phy 17
phy skill 3
ss tb

elit3essays
math
chem
phy16
phy17
phySPAws
geog graded
sswb
germ

ok i have loads to do so just a short brief description

woke early
went to j8
stood for almost 5 hrs
did flag day at bottom of bridge
there were 2 really impressionable encounters
they said weird stuff
saw beverly too

went for lunch with parents
then to buy stuff at supermart

celebrated parents wedding anniversary
same place as reunion dinner
the dessert had dry ice in a cup underneath and it was in a small plate on top
so cool

came home lor
haha gg to do hw
i think

montag werde ich sterben
ich habe die hausaufgaben nicht machen

2 days left
still got cip tmr

i cant finish my hw!
i am positive that i tried to do
but just couldnt do in time

hw is still not doing itself
haha
havent finished phy yet

elit elit elit math chem phy phy phy geog ss

i am so broke now

the remedial was ok
learnt some stuff and managed to keep awake even when i was nodding off in the bus afterwards
am tired
woke extremely early but only managed to reach on the dot

rain was very heavy
but eehui ran home from the bus stop
hope shes not too wet
even i got soaked with an umbrella
but i think the umbrella spoilt

dont feel like doing hw
i want to watch youtube and play games

i want to go but no money

so irritating la can is it so hard to respond when someone is talking to u?

cant decide
so many 'what if's

vielleicht soll ich hier bleiben
es macht viel besser

i dno

was soll ich machen?
ich habe angst
wenn ich an dem Studentenaustauschprogramm zugelassen nicht würde, wäre ich noch einmal enttäucht

i dno

maybe i shldnt even try
it feels like they did it cos they pitied us
cos we seemed so ke lian when we didnt succeed the first time
its not like we got in the first time and are going to a nice place
though i wld like to meet 'frankfurter's and 'hanburger's
i dont think i want to take the risk
immer wieder

fine la then i dont go lor since i sound like such a big burden


need to work faster
too much hw, too little time

wenn ich geld hätten, würde ich viele geschenke kaufen

weil wir nur drei monat haben

nächste woche gehe ich zum moelc
präteritum und dativ
ich war fast 'banned'
aber sie sagt, dass ich kommen kann, weil ich nicht so gut bin

ich muss mehr deutsch sprechen, denn ich gute noten bekommen will
deshalb werde ich jetzt fleißig sein

ich werde erarbeiten!

was habe ich verkehrt schreiben?

$2 left for this week
so pro man

still got to pay for tys

chi elit math phy ss

i need advice
like how to survive this week with less money than i expected having used most of it before the week reaches wed

chem spa tmr
they said tmr

anyone wants bio ten yr series?
i dont need it but its new never written in
2006
want then tell me la

wanted to go back there to buy food before i went home
who knows
guess who found me there

then passed by hougang mall to get stuff

have chem spa tmr
wonder if i shld have come straight home
but its impt cos tmr onwards no time alr

nice poem

ich wunsche, dass dieser germantag genau wie letzter germantag sein wird

believe it or not i didnt eat for 19 hrs and when i finally did i only ate 2 bowls of spaghetti as compared to usual many

and that i finished hw this morn
whee

5 days
was kann ich geben?

havent been sleeping well for weeks
got dug up again this morn
havent eaten yet was doing hw the whole morn

i want sleep

haha changed some stuff
hope it looks slightly better

6 days
i really want to know what i can do
walao eh
bitte
help

sleeping too little recently
tmr got to wake early again

dno la dun confuse me

maybe if i didnt do anything it wld be better

eng chem phytest ssgraded
argh

eng passage
math test
phy prac ws
ss graded
germ ws

i think

suddenly i want to be sec 2 again
maybe its the hw or maybe its the tests

argh its so irritating

lit chem ss

still tired

aiyah i dno how to say la

woke up super early today can
7 sth

reached sch an hr and a half before time
spent it in fam lounge doing stuff

was a little hungry on the way but didnt eat anything

certain ppl sitting in front have a tendency to get distracted and do stuff that isnt allowed
ask them stop is impossible la

so gg to slp

tmr got to wake early again
whee

anw got to do stuff

am tired
chi then pack then im off!

eng elit

had learning club
weird thing: cp was at the bus stop at 5 sth

anw am really tired
off to do elit and yay

went with s1s to buy pt shirt
had quite a hard time figuring a way to go home

i feel so out of time

lit phy and chem

i dun want to think anymore
aft the whole day of hw i feel like plopping down and sleeping

shld i go?

haha went out in the aftnn to mum's office nearby there
ate lunch which was a huge sausage
then went off to nova

chose for half an hr before mum and dad finally decided

then on to s'pore post
chose for 3 hrs

finally chose 37
haha big soft ones
and other stuff

some were plates and cups and bowls
bet we'll be famous in their company for buying so many small things which ppl usually buy furniture and stuff
haha

anw ate and went ntuc

then came home and picked toys
at first wanted to give most away
now left with a few only

burnt myself a little bit just now
not serious la just a tiny pinkish spot

realised i couldnt touch hw the whole day
shld i be happy or sad?

finally have time to blog

so ate cake for breakfast this morn but apparently it isnt enough to be full with
was hungry during pe alr
first lesson of the day

the worst thing was when i ate the bread i felt like vomiting cos i dont really like that kind
and ive been trying to not eat that kind of bread for breakfast for years

went back to do duty lor
swept the floor till almost time

saw yanni aft sch
omg was so ji dong i shouted
embarrassing

ate lunch with her lor
then went for remedial

i miss going to east coast with the patrol

talk about nostalgia

vday

got stuff to do
haha

TEs
binomial
ammonia wkst
phy ws 3
germ

whee

tried really hard not to slp today

i dont want to
but looks like im off to do hw again
its a vicious cycle

i wonder why the bubble person nv bursts

gg to do hw

off to 'chop' paper
haha

went to bai nian early in the morn
was quite tiring cos i kept having to look around to stop myself from feeling blurred

anw they came over at 4 sth
talked quite alot then decided to go to their hse to eat
ate steamboat and it was qutie fun except there was this headache bugging me

am tired

ate dinner on the 6oth floor last night
it caused me to have pressure problems with my ears again cos the lift was moving quite fast

the fireworks were nice but very loud
got a pretty spectacular view from where we watched it

scared abt tmr
whats gg to happen
havent even met for years

gg to try to dig sth out to wear tmr

more hw

hurry hurry

math phy

happy birthday shakes

i dun want to do
argh

going off awhile before i come back

had a tiring day

woke up earlier than usual and rushed to sch to realise crystal wont be early
ran up and down to drop bags
then had morning jog and pe
was so tired during math fell aslp
then lit had to write 2 essays in half an hr
talk abt stress
had short lunch cos released late from lit
then rushed back to do TEs
then down for guides
had footdrill for awhile and went back to have test
couldnt finish the paper cos the person next to me *AHEM* was not being very conducive to sit beside
haha jk
anw handed it in and went home
tired but reading readers digest now

drank coffee just now
but i didnt get on a high

hw and stuff
too much

gtg do hw

got this headache again
made me feel like vomiting the whole morning
argh

tingxie and ss
jy ppl

its only mon
and alr got this huge headache

so much stuff

no more rummaging
at least not now

gg to do hw

just rummaged through this whole pile of clothes
i give up officially for today
its too much

anw woke early cos of the sun AGAIN
really tired

maybe the last time i go back there as a home...

i guess its me

am really tired
almost wiped out aft pe just now
cos of morning jog and pe consecutively
then it had to be math

games was fun
but now i think i really need to sleep soon before i hit the table with my face
haha

got back chi 'o's results
not bad i guess

yanni did quite well
at least she can choose what jc to go to

gtg pack
and see if got hw

so many ppl talking at a time

had to fall sick today
argh
now i'll look like im crying tmr when i get results
stupid running nose and sore throat

i gtg
dun wanna slp in class tmr

argh
tired

woke up late this morn
rushed to sch with my bun in my lap
then tried to finish chi
while chewing at the bun

went off to eat lunch aft sch and apparently the two 'anorexic' ppl joined me and refused to eat
kept telling me to hurry up cos they needed to go lib or sth
now u know how i felt for the past 3 yrs and a half every single day
its a terrible feeling

so anw aft tt waited in class while the others had alr went home to study lit i think
then went home with sher
yup 43 is faster than my normal way
somemore was till the mrt there saved me loads of energy

dno if im supp to be happy or sad now
got lit and chi and phy
but still feel quite ok not like ytd

am sleepy cos the morning sun is so glaring cant sleep long

at least it encourages early waking

so am gg to do a little then sleep

tired

heads throbbing like siao

argh

had morning jog then pe when the guy made us do sth like pt but less injuring
just scraped abit instead of the whole thing become reddish

then had phy test

am now physically and mentally exhausted

phy
off

tired, headache

gtg

felt giddy the whole day
almost slept during lessons cos everything was so blur

the heavy rain made us late
but excused
still, its weird tt we screamed cos of the water sprayed at us

3rd lang was funny

havent used my new bags yet

stupid hw

i keep breaking stuff

walked 3 stops today
whee

i got to study

didnt get to do hw cos was packing
rush

had this extremely big allergic reaction
was sneezing so loudly the whole carpark heard me
whoops
used up loads of tissues too

lalala

got 2 bags today
cos apparently mine are spoiling and its hard to use them

gtg
got hw and stuff to unpack

this week went by really slowly
was so busy

i dun care not gg to touch hw tonight

got shouted at for nth la

sweated loads today
pe aft running
ftdrll

ich bin wirklich müde
vielleicht kann ich schlafen

today was generally toll but had this schlecht part
thanks a lot

had elit then geog then math test
es macht nicht SpaB

spent most of lunch at birdiea's grave and trying to do pat tee
didnt succeed though
was freaking out over losing tt thing

i wld say 3rd lang cheered me up loads
when eehui caught the bär and said eww
and the gespräch abt weird stuff

then the way home was fun
was trying to feed mum seaweed and the motorist next to us was like licking his lips and staring

theres still loads of hw
and tests to study for
when i said me i meant before the hol
now im packed with stuff

thanks alot
-

ich habe mittagessen nicht gegessen
nur ein bisschen brot

drei - sehr viel

lala
dno why but im in a not so good mood but am high at the same time
weird

oh so she sleeps early but i have to work in the dark in the NEXT room so she can sleep in nice atmosphere
and me? im trying to study here
the table light is too glaring i cant concentrate la can
and she wakes up like an hr later than me
this is so fair

dno if its the allergic reaction to dust or is it too cold opening the windows
my nose keeps running

the poor bird la
it hit the glass of the pe rm and broke its neck
i was in extra lesson but eehui and chengmun were there
so helped to chunkol out the soil while they put it in
then put it back lightly
talking abt it, there're too many flowers here
shall bring some tmr

off to read healthcare notes

saw jieying in the canteen today
haha just scanned across then thought i saw her
then looked back and she really was sitting there

found another way to go home
just tt it took an hr and 15 min

not in the mood now

still got hw to do
eek

woke really early today but still was a little late

was high till around the middle part when sth happened

and got all tired and hungry
ended up eating around 3 sth 4 there

still got hw argh

reached extremely early today for some reason

anw the survey thing right i also cant fill
so weird the qns

im tired
tmr can say again

i was right
it was a long day

had this talk in the morning and aft lessons
i think she very pro haha

went 3rd lang with eehui and sat there while these ppl behind her were pointing at us and laughing
weird

went in too early
had to be chased out till a few min later

containers were nice
went in to see just now

mum fetched kim home before we went back
am so sleepy

tmrs gonna be a long long day
eek

happy new year ppl

packed and did hw for the whole day

cant believe its only another week more
and its gone

anw got shocking news when we went back today
didnt know
we're so sorry

stupid hw