yesterday/ this morning, i had the most fun i had i ages.

after a seemingly slack/ relaxed day, i went home, bathed, and went out for supper again at 11pm with the 3 of them.
it may sound odd to many people my age, but it was the first time i went out so late from home, alone. (excluding hall of course)
and the first time i went for supper, especially since ppl in halls in ntu are known for late night suppers.
we went upp thomson for tau huay, but ended up eating bak chor mee too (wahhh damn fattening), till like 1am.
then talked, and talked.
ended up leaving the tau huay shop at 4. hahaha.
oops.
htht-ing was relaxing, and i liked how easily we talked about it all.
except a few awkward pauses i guess...

shall go read the rest of my chap 8 acc notes tonight.

and to my friends out there who are listening, thanks for being there too.

as i look back upon my archives, i realise how much of my memories are stored here.
really should find time to back up the posts when i'm free...

anyway recently i've had some problems i didn't know how to face, and so i decided to check my horoscope.
and for some reason, they were pretty accurate.

thurs:
You are dealing with an issue of trust, Scorpio. This is a topic that comes up somewhat often for you. As one of the most secretive signs, you would rather keep things to yourself than to share your vulnerabilities, which in turn creates an environment that is not conducive to trust. Right now, you are either afraid to trust someone, or you are hurt because someone doesn't trust you. No matter which of these is the issue, you need to be willing to share more of yourself if you are to get closer to someone. It will take a leap of faith, but it could open up a new dimension of love for you.

i know how it feels now to not be trusted. it feels horrible. but then again, i can't blame you this time. i can't even trust myself to not to do anything...

fri:
Stupid is as stupid does. There may be someone in your world who is giving you criticism or guidance or inspiration - or is trying to, at least. You may be avoiding this person's words of wisdom, or hearing them and letting them go in one ear and out the other with little thought in between. The reason? Your perception of this person is that he or she is not very bright, or not sophisticated, or not wise, or... you get the picture. But, despite appearances, this individual has quite a lot to offer you. You are advised to listen carefully.

anyway, a lot has happened lately.
i haven't been in the best of moods, so i think i need to stop talking too much to affect others.
yup. and sometimes i wish people aren't being TOO understanding either. makes me feel so bad about it.

but just had the last sign language lesson.
it was fun, and i'll definitely miss it.

i wish for mental and emotional strength.

lying on my bed and blogging (Y)
have homework due tomorrow for math, but so no mood lol.

anyway, the more i hear, the more frustrating it is.
like some long drama haha...

-edit 6.30am on 28oct-
woke up an hr ago but i dont seem to be very productive lol

ran back in the rain after lunch.
shiok. and i think it was a pretty fun feeling...

so anyway, finished my part of the webite.
but doing gic slides now.
and script...

by tonight must finish.

okay shall go mug

lol its deepavali.
but im in hall.
just finished my part for 1002, but going to do 1004 presentation too. soon.
waiting to eat lunch cos i was rushing 1002 the entire morning.
so have been starving with no breakfast...

ohwells, going out to eat alr! haha.

maybe blog again another time...

haiz. what do i do now...

so anyway, had maincomm subcomm bonding on fri for cec.
was super disappointed when they transferred me to join another group to even out the numbers.
but ohwells, no choice anyway...

so the most fun part was just the dumping of water on each other. lol.

then went back to bathe and to h3 to play stuff like saboteur. haha.
stayed up till 4 plus lol.
then was sent back to h13 cos apparently it wasnt safe for 2 girls to walk back together...

woke up at like 9 plus ytd then had to wake them up cos they wanted breakfast at 10.
ended up eating at cant 2 an hour plus later hahaha.

and finally could go home.

listened to what happened last night.
then it suddenly dawned on me that i was being the exact same bastard in another situation.
can someone please tell me what to do? so confused sometimes...

haiz.
pack up, then go sleep.

wahh siao. stop checking fb and go do your work la.
target:
accounting presentation
research for gic
cz1002 website

should i/ do i actually still have time to go play badminton? they say can relax...

sometimes i wonder whether u're using me?
and whether you know about the reason we actually even started talking?

then again, how many things can just remain as secrets?

and then sometimes, i feel so bad about it. i want to stop, to say sorry, but i can't. not without hurting at least one person.

should we all let go?

hmm it's been another hectic week. argh...
starting to wonder whether i'm regretting taking on more than i can handle?

spent monday night, tuesday night and a lot more breaks and lectures on doing the slides up for gic presentation 1. i feel like i could have been more productive..
too much time.
wednesday was sign language, then went back to mug for accounting.
i think i should have spent a lot more time on it.
accounting was really badly done in my opinion. fail already. confirm.

went to discuss cz1002 project yesterday, then home. didn't even go cz1001 example class in order to call up external people. haiz. or maybe i just wasn't in the mood.

i WILL do accounting tut today.

meanwhile, out to get a haircut. lol.

what happened? just a few days ago, the conversation was long, interesting, and the thought was there. why has it suddenly progressed to something so distant and cold?

anyway, focus. finish the website then the research. yup...

told you to stop zai1-ing in that situation.
saw this on fb:

look familiar? lol.

went canvassing at suntec as waiters and waitresses.
tired, but not enough to push me to sleep. lol.
were signing at each other just now. hahaha.
so then my back aches cos i kept bending in as u couldnt squeeze in.
my shoes finally gave way after 4 years of not wearing them...
and we finished at 11 plus, then the ic thing had problems, so we waited till 12 plus before we could leave, but it was fun walking back too to ps...

shall sleep now. haha its 230, nodded off haha

i dont like where this is going.
why has the reliance grown so much in less than a month?
distance. distance.

anyway, idk whether i should tell her too.
she really seems to be taking this seriously...

shall sleep early tonight.
damn tired.
good night(:

just a very short post. haha.
didnt tweet today when i was walking back to hall...
haha become such a common occurrence that it seems odd to not do it...

was smsing. lol.

anyway, i like the new phone, except the battery goes really fast-.-

shall go finish biz law then sleep.
good night.

i should be napping. lol.
but then again, i need to do work.

and there's this urge to ask. but i just cant. ohwells.

it was a super long and tiring week. not at all like recess.
went ice skating on mon, planned to go shopping and pool too, but started late so ended up just going to arcade and playing awhile.
plus lunch at pastamania.
(just realised i repeated what i posted before, lol)

went for wsc cor camp on tues and wed.
super shag, slept like only 2 hours.
then played running games, and all sorts of funny wet/ aggressive/ dirty games.
and learnt to song sign 'reach for the sky'...

woke early on thurs to go sch for foc welfare meeting.
lasted till early afternoon then went to rush the testing of the python assignment.
and then went down to kovan for pool (which i sucked at)
then to serangoon gardens for dinner.
food at chomp chomp was quite nice actually, i enjoyed the stingray, oyster omelette, carrot cake, lala, hokkien mee, chicken wings, and the gigantic cups of sugar cane.
or maybe i just enjoyed stuffing myself lol.
then went to yi wan tian pin for durian mousse. it was so nice, very full but still finished it. hahaha. glutton sia.

and then had acc proj meeting on fri at airport t3.
went directly to photoshoot after that.
must say they did look artistic, great idea with the red stuff and the balloons.

and so, shall go sleep soon.