Saturday, September 30, 2006

celebrated my sis birthday
ate a ton of mushrooms

studying bio
realised u cant memorise that pile of info

sometimes when u want to do something, u look back and see the time u were hurt. and u never did it again. even if u wanted to do it badly. u remember the hurtful words. u try to hit the delete button. but there isnt any. u try to get out of that painful memory. but u cant. u feel like its a nightmare u cant wake from. u wished life were easier.

copyrighted lokyin

btw i won a disney contest
recieved a free t-shirt
my sis was ecstatic

science

Friday, September 29, 2006

another 2 down
i dont really understand
wads e point of making a list when u dont bother abt it
dun update it

wads e use

shouldnt i be studying?
yes
but hey i am
sort of

so many broken promises

u promised that we would talk
but ur status says busy

u promised to reply my questions
its way past ur dateline

u promised me life would be easy
that things cld sort themselves out

u promised

when life brings u down so much it cant get any worse. suddenly something happens and makes u think life can and will get better. u get hope. but only to cause disappointment again. u get a little better to be dragged even lower than ever before. u think its hopeless to try. u believe what u think. it gets meaningless to try anymore. life, is and forever will be, unfair. never wanted something so much in ur life. yet u cant get it. u look back and see the little kid with a happy smile. u fail to realise u were once that happy. it dawns upon u that u had problems but cld solve them. u realise u were a weak person, always apologising for something not ur fault. but now u've changed. u wont bend down to people anymore. u remember the bad times u had, the people who once bullied u. but u dont hate, u wonder why they are such bullies. u understand they do all that because they were like u. they needed help and wanted attention. they just chose the violent way to express it and u chose the way to give in. u've been counselled by teachers but they never find out why u never wanted to go to school. u've had people using violence but u never retaliated. u grew into someone who hates violence. u've been made use of time and again. u became wary of people. people tricked u and u thought they actually, for once, like u. u find out they just wanted to make fun of u. u were hated for being teachers pet. suddenly u find ur life changing. u're confused. u dont know who is true. u find ur head in a big mess. u want to know why theres a change. no one wants to tell u. u want comfort and u want to know why those people were so bad to u when u were younger. u want to get out of being a shadow. u feel different. but u dont know how it'll last. u feel insecure. life just looks brighter. all u ever wanted was just a friend. who knows how it'll turn out.

copyrighted lokyin

wait did i just type tt?
tt big paragraph

Thursday, September 28, 2006

yay 1 down
many more to go
dun ask me how it went anymore
i wont say
geog tmr
16 chap left
english
how to finish?
without help now

then again i dun need help from u
i alw managed

hist is repeating itself
with diff ppl

ahhhh

am i the only person devoted to my com?

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

have 4 people bombarding me with questions
5 to be exact
in 4 convos

my cousin talk to me
lalalala

doing math and chinese hw
and studying geog and german
found a great way to rmb hist

now everyones quiet
wow they do change fast

exam tmr
arrgghh
i got loads of well wishes
thanks

got to try my best
i promised

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

Happily ever after
They all lived happily happily happily ever after
The couple is happily leaving the chapel eternally tied
As the curtain descends there is nothing but loving and laughter
When the fairy tale ends the heroins always a bride
Ella the girl of the cinders
Did the wash and the walls and the winders
But she landed a prince who was brawny and blue eyed and blond
Still I honestly doubt that she could ever have done it without that
Crazy lady with the wand--Cinderella had outside help
I've got no one but me
Fairy godmother godmother godmother where can you be?
I haven't got a fairy godmother. I haven't got a godmother.
I have a mother. A plain, ordinary woman.
Snow White was so pretty they tell us
That the queen was insulted and jealous
When the mirror declared that Snow White was the fairest of all
She was dumped on the border
But was saved by some men who adored her
Oh I grant you they were small
But there were 7 of them practically a regiment
I'm alone in the night
by myself not a dwarf not an elf not a goblin in sight
That girl had 7 little men working day and night just for her
Oh sure the queen gave her a poisoned apple.. even so
She lived happily happily happily ever after
A magical kiss counteracted the apple eventually
Though I know I'm not clever I'll do what they tell me I hafta
I want some happily ever after to happen to me
[original]
[Rapunzel had platinum tresses
That were double the length of her dresses
She was kept in a tower for years by a wicked old witch
Till one night in despair down
She scrambled by letting her hair down
That's what I call quite a switch
I wonder no it'll never hold
I'll be finished before I begin
And besides]
{Revival}
{Winnifred Pade of the myre
Has one simple human desire
Oh I ask for no more that two shoes on the floor next to mine
Oh someone to fly and to float with
To swim in the marsh and the moat with
As for this one well, he'd be fine
but now it's all up to me!
And I'm burning to bring it about
If I don't I'll be stuck with goodbye and good luck and get out
I don't want to get out I want to get in
I wanna get into some happily happily ever after}
[I don't want to get out I want to get in
I want to live happily happily happily ever after]
I want to walk happily out of the chapel eternally tied
For I know I'll never live happily ever after till after i'm a bride
Then I'll be happily happy
Yes happily happy
And thouroughly satisfied


once upon a mattress

still have a stack of chinese hw to do
this is wad u get when ur teacher is absent for 2 wks

dun wan to do

29 hrs left
am still not motivated
oh no
math is alr impossible to get a1
or the only option is get 106 marks
cannot la

the rest of my grades all b so far
am going to keep it that way
or better

am off to finish german and geog
study i mean
and hw also
sometimes i rather have 1 per day

and u ask why
and u say i shouldnt have

why did i even try
cos i cared

Monday, September 25, 2006

little mr roo

Little Mr. Roo
Reaching up for the moon
So many things you've got to do
And no time for dreaming

Little Mr. Roo
Let the stars shine over you
Don't grow up too fast, too soon
Save some time for dreaming

Settle in, settle down
Let me see that sleepy yawn on your face
Close your eyes
I will love you completely and always

Little Mr. Roo
The moon shines silver over you
No one knows you like I do
And little Mr. Roo
Reaching for the moon
Don't grow up too fast
Too soon


disney song

still have a cold

sometimes it good to have a cold
since no one can tell if u're really sick
or crying

u ask why?
my answer is simple
i will go
and why?
i do all i can for what i like
its the same way with people
i can do anything

believe me or not
we are so going to be ready tmr
readily ready
i will bring the powerpoint
and slack

ok going to do some editing

Sunday, September 24, 2006

Oh yea
Come on

You get the limo out front
Hottest styles, every shoe, every color

Yea when your famous it can be kinda fun
Its really you but no one ever discovers

In some ways you're just like all your friends
But on stage you're a star

You get the best of both worlds
Chillin' out, take it slow
Then you rock out the show

You get the best of both worlds
Mix it all together and you know that it's the best of both worlds

The best of both worlds

You go the movie premiers (is that Orlando Bloom?)
Hear your songs on the radio
Livin' two lives is a little weird
But schools cool cuz nobody knows

Yea you get to be a small town girl
But big time when you play your guitar

You get the best of both worlds
Chillin' out take it slow
Then you rock out the show

You get the best of both worlds
Mix it all together and you know that it's the best of both
You know the best of both worlds

Pictures and autographs
You get your face in all the magazines
The best parts that you get to be who ever you wanna be

Yea best of both
You get the best of both
Come on best of both

Who would of thought that a girl like me
Would double as a superstar

You get the best of both worlds
Chillin' out, take it slow
Then you rock out the show

You get the best of both worlds
Mix it all together and you know that it's the best of both worlds

You get the best of both worlds
Without the shades and the hair
You can go anywhere

You get the best of both girls
Mix it all together
Oh yea
It's so much better cuz you know you've got the best of both worlds


ok am really happy
have another cousin on my msn list
yay

the funniest thing is im the one hving exams but i talk the most

i think i have a cold
cos there're 10 tissues beside me

Saturday, September 23, 2006

Take the world
Shake and stir
And that’s what I got going on
Throw my cares
Up in the air
And I don’t think they’re coming down
Yeah I love how it feels right now

CHORUS

Cause this is the life
Hold on tight
And this is the dream
It’s all I need
You never know where you’ll find it
I’m gonna take my time, yeah
I’m still gettin it right
This is the life

VERSE 2

Takin’ in
A whole new scene
And I’m swimming with a new crowd
Breakin down
The old four walls
And I’m building them up from the ground
Yeah I love how it feels right now

CHORUS

BRIDGE

Gonna follow my own lead, yeah
Kick back and feel the breeze
Nothing but the blue sky
As far as I can see


ok so i havent started on powerpoint today
but i will get to it

did i say i get overly excited when my cousin talks to me?
cos i am now

ok really going to do now

Friday, September 22, 2006

still have to do home ec powerpoint
dead beat
have another headache
this is going to be one long term

2 papers to finish for the weekend
and 1 long essay

i used to study online
though i still do
its different now

remember the saying no one is indispensable?
wad do u think?

dun say i didnt try
i am studying geog, chem and german now
plus recopying the notes
plus online revising
plus doing hw
plus home ec powerpoint
and when u see me again
u wont recognise me
cos i will have 2 big black patches beneath my eyes
i barely can recognise me now
its so dark
unless i can grab enough opportunities to sleep
is there any type of thing tt can keep people awake?
need it desperately
how many of me are there?

Thursday, September 21, 2006

oral today
it was NOT easy
and i made many mistakes

thanks for e msg
it came on time
but i turned my phone to the non vibrating mode
so it wont ying xiang my mood


another day

fell asleep when i reached home
was so tired
still have another 11 hrs to sleep off

am so energiless now

-potential to roduce better results
-positive attitude towards sch work
-perform well next year
-willing to improve
-new ideas
-can do better
-capable of better results if se tries harder
-more confidence in herself
comments
obvious from where
and with these i work

no time to do hw but i will finish it
if there're too many typos ignore
my keyboard hard to type

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

am tired
cant believe the number of people saying i have huge eye bags
still doing

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

still on report
how to finish on time?
gg to do now

when its not ur problem, stay out of it
when theres no problem, stop saying there is
suspicions don't help any

Monday, September 18, 2006

am working on home ec stuff

got to slp soon
(:
the next timei blog long wil be when i am finally free

Sunday, September 17, 2006

k i too busy now
just saying hi

Saturday, September 16, 2006

met my aunt today
she on a trip
went chinatown and all tt
realise the young people all dont walk
the older ones actually walked
but the younger ones go take bus
with exception of me and my sis
haiz tts money

i quite miss my cousins
wish they were online

is it too late?
its 2 months and 3 days past
but i did it anyway

my bag strap spoil on the way to hsk
make me have to go home with another bag over it

am still seriously busy

Friday, September 15, 2006

as i said
if want to dui fu my friends
first ask me

pretty busy still moving my stuff over
its hard when ur com bullies u too
like i say

who say com cant make u unhappy?

am working on another project
winnie the poohs

i care abt ny grades
unlike some people

really
im starting to get scared of her

i go online every day

Thursday, September 14, 2006

still doing my own things
love winnie the pooh
took pictures of every single winnie the pooh on my bed
call me immature if u wish
THEY were the ones who calmed me down
they are the ones who know my secrets
they helped me to sleep
esp when i didnt get those with others

when u insult my friends
ask me first

that is slander
there is no proof

if u have the integrity then own up
dont make someone innocent take the rap
i can vouch for her character
she has told the truth
cheating is an offence
so is theft

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

am still doing settings
will blog longer when i finish

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

am changing com.
very busy so no time to write
k er was another ok day
and got to go and download stuff

Monday, September 11, 2006

am very very sorry
i really tried
but it just didnt work

am working on wads belated for 2 months minus 2 days
well i planned on giving and doing it on tt day
but u said not ur choice
and i was tired

still studying physics at the same time
i actually know wad they talking abt
and blogging also

the show 'better halves' is really nice
go watch when u have time
i watch before

theres home ec tmr
breaking the news isnt going to be anywhere near easy
and I have to be the bad guy

was looking forward to studying
sorry
i truly am

have a nice stay

i have let down too many people in the past year
i know i did

just got to finish those
coming back tmr.
unless blogger breaks down too

Sunday, September 10, 2006

math paper tmr
am i ready?
no
science paper after that
am i prepared?
no

got to run again tmr
feel like not going
haha

sitting by the com staring at my ppr
wondering how much of a miracle could happen

and look at the no of books i got to lug to sch
eng-nth
geog-3
math-2
lit-1
german-6
total=12
12!!!!

plus home ec notes-1
math, phy, chem ,bio notes-5 books
file-1

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

everyones studying but me

and why am i not studying?
well i dun know
should i have been studying?
i guess so

am going to hit the books now

still got to handle being a bad guy tmr
are u happy now?

Saturday, September 09, 2006

doing chinese.
am just plain bored
its 9.56
u noe wad it means

ohya this morn at 12 i smsed her
her replied
and oh no hasnt forgotten who i am
at least she knows i still exist
haha

today is the 4th day
i got burnt 4 days in a row
believe it or not
wed was during the he stuff
thur was while i spilt burning hot soup on myself
fri was well i touched metal and an almost melted plate
today?
cooking mushrooms
i am just too accident prone la
i still got the scar left from ytd

i have a very messy study environment

and i still have hw left

am going to do now
and someone seems to be either late or not here

Friday, September 08, 2006

Concentration comes from a combination of confidence and hunger

Yuan4 suo2 you3 kuai4 le4 de dong xi
Wei2 rao4 zai ni3 shen1 bian
Smile


Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind


Never talk defeat-

The condition which high friendship demands is the ability to do without it. Do we forgive our friends or enemies?

A moment's insight is sometimes worth a life's experience

ji4 mo4 zhi3 shi4 yi ge4 tao2 bi4 de fang1 fa3,
xiang3 zhao3 dao4 zhen de zhi ji3 peng2 you3,
bi4 xu1 chi2 zhi yi3 heng2,
nai4 xin de qu4 zhao3 xun2

once bitten twice shy

In three words i can sum up everything that ive learnt abt life. it goes on

If u're sincere, praise is effective. If u're insincere, it is manipulative.

A smile is a window on ur face to show ur heart is at home

The desire not to be anything is the desire not to be.

at least no one can snatch my memories away from me

all the best to you too.

There will be a rainbow after the rain

There are 2 easy ways of sliding thru life; believe everything or dout everything. both save us from thinking

The difference in the impossible and the possible lies in a person's determination

U can tell a person more by wad he says about others then wad others say about him

Always remember others may hate u but those who hate u dun win unless u hate them back. and then u destroy urself

The best teacher is one who suggests rather then dogmatizes, and inspires the listener with the wish to teach himself

A faithful friend is a strong defense;and he that hath found one hath found a treasure

A weak man has doubts before a decision, a strong man has them afterwards

Its difficult to say who does u e most mischief; enenies with e worst intentions or friends with e best

Whenever u're in conflict with someone, there is one factor that can made the difference between breaking up and becoming even closer-> Attitude

Reach high, for stars lie hidden in ur soul. Dream deep, for every dream preceeds a goal

The great scheme of things, what matters is not how long u live, but why u live, what u stand for and what u r willing to die for

No work no prize; no pain no gain

A failure establishes only this; that our determination to succeed was not strong enough

We are all travellers in the wilderness of the world, and the best that we can find in our travels is a honest friend

A smile is the light in the window that tells others there is a loving, caring, and concerned person inside

Self reliance is the only road to true freedom; and being one's own person is its ultimate award

U must understand the whole of life, thats why u must study, sing, dance make friends, break up, love and suffer, and understand that all that is life

let the shrine of friendship never say die, let the wine of friendship never run dry

Never, never, never, never, never give up

An achiever is a doer, one that realises the challenge and willingly accepts it

A big shot is a little shot that kept shooting

The difference between an optimist and a pessimist is that an optimist thinks this is the best possible world. A pessimist fears that this is true

Break thru the barriers that have held u back and held u down for such a long time SMILE(:

People dun care how much u noe, till they know how much u care

Confuse not excellence and perfection. Excellence; i can reach for. Perfection; is god's business

The difference between perseverance and obstinacy is that one comes from a strong will and the other a strong won't

Perhaps the more delightful friendships are those in which there is much agreement, much disputation and yet more personal liking

just push HER aside and move on. Real friends are waiting... only if u search hard enough

true happiness consists not in the multitude of friends, but in their worth and choice

I have not failed, I have just found 10 000 ways that wont work

There are 2 kinds of failures, those who thought and never did, and those who did and never thought

i know the breaking down feeling. dont. it isnt nice
feel like rewinding

6/8/03
does the word senior mean anything?

19/4/03
ml but still saw her
small world

19/9/03
someone let me hold her stuff and forgot to take it back
had to go send it back to her

12/12/03
went to east coast park and was forced to learn to ride a bike
man i loved those people
and days

18/5/04
saw someone walking to bishan park in a pink frilly shirt

18/3/05
first patrol outing
it was so embarassing

8/7/05
lugging boxes home

2/8/05
first day of cip

23/8/05
cip but hey guess wad
recieved an sms

omg omg OMG
guess wad i just realised
i found 1 of the people i was looking for from kindergarten
she actually in my class right now
i gave up last year
but was just going thru my old blog posts and realised i knew a name
ahhhhhhhhhhhh
ok nth to be anxious abt actually
shall bring the photo to sch on mon
not close

just remembered
tmr is someones birthday
someone special
she stood up for me
she covered for me
she never thought about status

she remembers me at least
well she didnt forget
she smsed back

realised i have the knack of staying up to sms ppl and say happy bdae?

17/11/05
2 invasions
have to admit it was fun

dec10 and 22 went patrol outing again

'all the best to u too'
i really must say
thank you
i know we've had our problems
but for the many moments of comfort i thank you

the next post is dedicated to u
cos of all the nice things u did for me

Thursday, September 07, 2006

somethings seriously wrong with me
cant believe i cried cos i 'misplaced' the home ec stuff
stress stress

thank you rachael
the sms was really funny
at least it took my mind off work while

thank you squeak
i mean ms not the mr one
those friends of urs really kept me busy with all the weird smses that werent supposed to be sent to me

actually cant help being stressed
4 people are depending on this set of notes
to not only pass
but get a good grade

and maths i still dont get the concept

and science
i die
forgot everything
except some parts of diffusion and osmosis
and a little of atomic structure
and maybe some chem

chinese? forget it

lit? well im starting on macbeth later
as in how much later i dno

deutsch???
man when am i going to be ready for the session on sat and sun?
its sat AND sun right?
or sat OR sun?
well im going to be online for both
time is alr stated go see
i got something to say
wait till wochenende
msn
i believe u'll be there
hope this time its not another time im stupid

am going to start on hw now

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

i think im falling sick
was dizzy when i was outside trying to start on hw
then realised i was burning
took my temp
not at fever yet but whenever it reaches 37 i know its coming

cant fall sick now
cant cant cant
exams coming
have to postpone sickness to dec
or can i?

it hurts

i didnt mean my head only

i've reopened the blog
im not sure i want to do this so give me some time
pls dun do anything else for now

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

THE BEST OF BOTH WORLDS
You get the limo out front
Have the styles, every shoe, every color.
Yeah, when you're famous it can be kinda fun
It's really you but no one ever discovers
In some way you're just like all your friends
But on stage you're a star

You get the best of both worlds(Both Worlds)
Chill it out,take it slow
Then you rock out the show
You get the best of both worlds(Both Worlds)
Mix it all together and you know that it's the best of both worlds
The best of both worlds


You go to movie premieres(Is that Orlando Bloom?)
Hear your songs on the radio
Living two lives is a little weird(Yeah)
But school's cool 'cause nobody knows
Yeah, you get to be a small town girl
But big time when you play your guitar

You get the best of both worlds(Both Worlds)
Chill it out,take it slow
Then you rock out the show
You get the best of both worlds(Both Worlds)
Mix it all together and you know that it's the best of both You know the best of both worlds

Pictures and autographs
You get your face on all the magazines
The best part is that
You get to be who-ever you want to be

Yeah, the best of both
You've got the best of both
Come on best of both
Who would of thought that a girl like me
Would double life a superstar

Whoa!

You get the best of both worlds(Both Worlds)
Chill it out, take it slow
Then you rock out the show
You get the best of both worlds(Both Worlds)
Mix it all together and you know that it's the best

You get the best of both worlds(Both Worlds)
With the shades and the hair
You can go anywhere
You get the best of both girls(Both Worlds)
Mix it all together, oh yeah
It's so much better 'cause you know you've got the best of both worlds.


well got let off at 11 today
and guess wad?
i left the school at 12.30
was sitting at the specs stand all along

this may or may not sound like a normal post to you

have almost finished the paper
have continued with home ec
and all for wad?

think i can say i have patience?
can rewind
lets count pri sch math

Monday, September 04, 2006

a few of my most treasured possessions till now
too bad i know im the only stupid idiot to keep some of them
even when those have lost their meaning

not in any order

a file of my certificates
a chain with 5 dangling stars
a friendship band
a certain white bear sitting on my bed
a certain brown bear sitting on my pillow
a grey hippo
a purple bear
and well, the others on my bed
but these are the most important ones

the file started in pri 4 or 5
the first cert was traffic games
i came in first
much earlier than the ones cycling
i walked

the chain and band
well i still bring it with me onto my bed every night
and bring it down again the next morning
so it wont get lost
but i guess im the only one acting so stupidly

the enrolment bear
i used to be scared of thunder
believe it or not
well its a comfort

the guide bear
erm i think u know

the hippo
lovingly named sesame
i used to bring it for vacations

the purple bear
its cuddly

some of them
i know

ok i guess im back to home ec
cos i know no one will be needing me
i can do the project now
and back to square 1
im useless in that way
why look for me only when u need help?
cos i am of use???


to a particular someone
i've watched part of troy
i still dont get why u like it so much
but well
i learned that we're different

and 'puke' colour isnt all that bad

Friday, September 01, 2006

two worlds

Put your faith in what you most believe in
Two worlds, one family
Trust your heart
Let fate decide
To guide these lies we see

A paradise untouched by man
Within this worlds blessed with love
A simple life, they live in peace

Softly tread the sand below your feet now
Two worlds, one family
Trust your heart
Let fate decide
To guide these lives we see

Beneath the shelter of the trees
Only love can enter here
A simple life, they live in peace

Raise your head up
Lift high the load
Take strength from those that need you
Build high the walls
Build strong the beams
A new life is waiting
But danger's no stranger here

No words describe a mother's tears
No words can heal a broken heart
A dream is gone, but where there's hope

Somewhere something is calling for you
Two worlds, one family
Trust your heart
Let fate decide
To guide these lives we see


woodlands library
say meet at pasir malam end up go burger king
hmph
thats why i was late ok
iw as actually on time
found out i could make it from here to woodlands in half hour
that is if i run all the way and bus and train come immediately

it was actually kind of fun
though i think running around with paper and pencil and drying ur mouth asking the same questions over and over isnt
i want to say something abt the survey
i went home and checked
oops
we didnt need 15 pple
wait dont kill me just yet
its better to have more
at least we made the effort

well accomplished that part
now have to work on explaining it
we did tt alr
bet it will take a hard time to tell her

will try to collate as soon as possible
one thing im not sure of is am i really doing the whole thing?
cos i feel like it
haha

at first i wanted to do this alone
cos im actually quite sure
SOMEONE wouldnt be of help
and SOMEONE would make things worse
and ok well maybe louisa is doing a little
but i said cos u do advertising i will do this
cant break my promise

and so there goes another long post
its to make up for the lost post 2 days later

well continue with the story
went minitoons
and the puzzles were like 4 for 10 dollars
too bad i cant drag a puzzle home
my parents will think im crazy

will start on home ec
and start on crediting people
and i dun care SOMEBODYS name will be at the top

happy hols to everyone!
well almost
[its not my problem]