it is times like this when i feel like jumping into bed and hugging blackcurrant really really tightly

so drained

we might find our place in this world someday

bought presents for sis bday today
walked alot

then stood on the bus for 20 min
half the time i wasnt holding on to anything cos nth in my reach
so i swayed and swayed
and the person behind kept swishing her big handbag at me

went to buy stuff at ntuc
like really late

had a fun day today
meaning: tmr will be study day

viel Glück für ihre Prüfung
tut mir leid
gestern war ich schlecht gelaunt

tut mir leid
donnerstag, habe ich vergessen

off i go for origami
or chuzzle
whichever can relax me for tmrs studying

wo waren sie?

No words describe a mother's tears
No words can heal a broken heart
A dream is gone, but where there's hope

i dno why i couldnt do such a simple thing right
all i had to do was ask and do

zuowen was ok
it seemed a little shorter than usual
but ok i guess

sent 76 smses this week
compared to the 20 last week
not bad eh

If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?

wrote alot for eng
and managed to crap sth for ss cos not enough time




look familiar?
i did the whole alphabet last year for the elit wang lung project on graph paper a few days before we went to vlaus house
right lou?
and mrs nath said it was too big

so anyway had lessons after we wrote essays
tired

alr used 50 sth smses this week
compared to 2 weeks ago

sorry
i didnt rmb so i turned off

theres a devil underneath every angel- denise

there goes my average

stupid past tense

still pain

going to sleep at 11
and pack by then
and study
and photocopy
and rmb my food and of course
the pre exam calmer

success is a feeling of self-recognition

leisten unser Bestes!

argh shoulders

just worked parents machine
so fun

feasted in class

so i was there a few min early
they said go in and 'make urself known'
but ended up leaving at 3.10
cos couldnt pack

shoulders still pain
carried my books cookies and heavy bag home
it was 13.5 kg
and why does it sound so much?
cos i might as well have carried 3/4 of my sis to sch

volleyball was hard today
it kept heading my way
but it was at an awkward position
so couldnt hit it properly

one day left
it aint enough

less stress= more success in life

ok so we went to pick colours
and yea
some designs too
i hope it doesnt look too weird

more people came

so i have 75min to study
not enough
tmr can dun think abt food alr

miracles can happen

tired
tmr got to wake early

and theres geog calling to me

not every story will have a happy ever after ending

today was ok
except the notes part
it got me really mad cos if she had printed it beforehand everyone cld have been studying now
and im just wasting my own time

slept again
was so tired

ich versuche

我没有你想象中那么坚强
我只是擅长用微笑去伪装，不是吗
我没有你形容得那么勇敢
我偶尔也会慌
我也和你一样曾经年少轻狂
受了一点伤
我们都是一样
相信永远不远
但坚持却有点难
－》情有可缘

what happens minutes before u go home will affect u
even if the whole day was great

so i walked to school as normal
the only difference: leg very pain
but they say doesnt look like it
who says have to walk like that then real

so then went to photocopy stuff
and then went to submit the wb ans

and then rushed past rooftop garden
and home

slept again
was supp to be studying

look way toot now with a yellow plaster on my forehead

so happy finally finished
my product:






haha
finished a bit more of ss and germ
whee

shouldnt have ran the 3 rounds
now cant even walk properly
i dont think its a pulled muscle
caused me to be quite late for sch
but still reached with a little time left
and then spent half an hr walking home
its like so long can

here i come ss!
getting 'reminded' in such a way must have done sth to my brain
ugh

you are your own worst enemy

geog german ss or diary???

we had dreams and aspirations
we tried but we failed

finished 1 chap of ss only
argh

must chiong germ by today

4 again today

yup bought cameras today

and did some hw

we can just cancel it u know
or move the date
then that day can go shopping without money or sth

am filing my ss and german notes
cant find chap 3 4 5
oops

theres sudoku on my bed
and a sketchbook
and the unfinished pres
and hw
i wonder which one i'll do aft i finish filing
maybe sleep haha

another busy day today
woke up ate breakfast arnd 11
then went out for lunch
then to novena
then to house
then to chinatown
then buy bottles
and eat dinner
and look at printers and cameras and camcorders and fridges
and supermarket
reached home ard 1 hr ago

can u believe she finished the whole container of mushrooms in 2 weeks?????

off i go!

today
didnt have the 1.5 hrs of math
spent it doing papers

watched movie also
some ppl cried so much during it

recess
whacked shakes 4 times

cooked
considering there isnt much left in our hse, i say i did quite ok
impossible to cook cucumber, tomato, sausage, onion, spring onion, garlic?
not any more

ate at 4 sth
dinner at 7
haha
im so growing fat

arent gonna do ss now
maybe tmr
now is unwind time
this week was tiring

可知我，情投入那种程度
在这崎岖的旅途
而你不可感觉到
心伤痛，从来未彻底流露
但你口中心中各一套
我知你仍然在找更好
而在那半夜里，恬静里
即使看见预告
前面有着那各自各的路
为何重头又是这样错，又这样错
深宵里我哭泣静待清早
当天我与你真爱过
今天我爱你又如何
为何又在伤害我，又感动我
麻木天真的爱慕
回忆里都是你一哭一笑
是最美丽都不会老

bet on it

Everybody always talking at me
Everybody trying to get in my head
I wanna listen to my own heart talking
I need to count on myself instead

Did you ever
Lose yourself to get what you want
Did you ever
Get on a ride and wanna get off
Did you ever
Push away the ones
You should've held close
Did you ever let go
Did you never not know

Chorus
I'm not gonna stop
That's who I am
I'll give it all I got
That is my plan
Will I find what I lost
You know you can

Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it
I don't need
I wanna make it right
That is the way
To turn my life around
Today is the day
Am I the type of guy
Who means what I say
Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it

How will I know
If there's a path worth takin
Should I question every move I make
With all I've lost my heart is breaking
I don't wanna make the same mistake

Did you ever
Doubt your dream will never come true
Did you ever
Blame the world but never blame you
And will never
Try to live a lie again
I don't wanna win this game
If I can't play it my way

Chorus
I'm not gonna stop
That's who I am
I'll give it all I got

That is my plan
Will I found what I lost
You know you can

Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it
I wanna make it right
That is the way
To turn my life around
Today is the day
Am I the type of guy
Who means what I say
Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on me

Oh hold up
Give me the room to think
Bring it on now
Got to work on my swing
Got to do my own thing
Hold up

It's no good at all
To see self and not recognize your face
Out on my own is such a scary place Ohhh
The answers are all inside of me
All I gotta do is believe

I'm not gonna stop
Not gonna stop till I get my shot
That's who I am
That's my plan
Will I end up on top
You can
Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it
You can
Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it
I wanna make it right
That is the way
To turn my life around
Today is the day
Am I the type of guy
Who means what I say
Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it
Bet on it
You can bet on me



can u believe i finished lunch a few min ago
haha

i miss last year
and the people
lalala going to study

You are the music in me

Na na na na
Na na na na yeah
You are the music in me
You know the words
"Once Upon A Time"
Make you listen?
There's a reason.
When you dream there's a chance you'll find
A little laughter
or happy ever after
Your the harmony to the melody
That's echoing inside my head
A single voice
Above the noise
And like a common thread
Hmm, you're pulling me
When I hear my favorite song
I know that we belong
Oh, you are the music in me
Yeah its living in all of us
And it's brought us here because
Because you are the music in me
Na na na na (Ohh)
Na na na na na
Yeah yeah yeah
You Are The Music In Me
It's like I knew you before we met
Can't explain it
There's no name for it
I'm saying words I never said
And it was easy
Because you see the real me
As I am
You understand
And that's more than I've ever known
To hear your voice
Above the noise
And no, I'm not alone
Oh you're singing to me
When I hear my favorite song
I know that we belong
You are the music in me
This living in all of us
And it's brought us here because
You are the music in me
Together we're gonna see
We got the power to say what we feel
Connected and real
Can't keep it all inside
Na na na na
Na na na na na
You are the music in me
Na na na na na
Na na na na
You are the music in me
When I hear my favorite song
I know that we belong
You are the music in me
Yeah it's living in all of us
It's brought us here because
You are the music in me
Na na na na
Na na na na
Na na na na
You are the music in me


was doing elit this morn
sorry i forgot
so yea ran down to get the mathematical instruments back

recess
was studying for exam
actually spent most of it with vlau and lou
talking
but i did study k
can rmb the bestimmten and unbestimmten and adjectivendung

went for lunch and then to kims hse and then macs and then 3rd lang
and we were at 3rd lang at 3.40
so super schnell nicht langsam im Schneckentempo

then got this magazine
it was dated oct92
omg its older than me
haha
and the ppl were like laughing so much cos the magazine was damn funny
first thing, the fact that its older than me
second, the 'chicken'
third, the guy with a hood and weird expression
and then the fact that im a difficult student
whee

our list of what we ate from lunch till 3rd lang:
lunch- kim ate 80c and me $1 orange bowl
then we went to macs
kim ate half a pack of fries and an apple pie
i ate only half a pack of fries
haha she ate more
then during break we shared a cup noodle
first time i see kimberly eat so much
YAY

haha today was really fun
but
i dno la

its tmr
omg omg omg

and still got elit to do before i can revise
bleh

today was quite ok
got a few tests back

whee

they are so effective
4 grps ytd
3 today
whee

anw guess who i saw on the way home?
we walked the part tgt

and when i reached home,
i ate
1 pack of skittles
66 packs of seaweed
and chocolate
haha
its been awhile since i ate so much


and off i go to do hw

Gotta go my own way

Listen,I gotta say what's on my mind
Something about us
doesn't seem right these days
life keeps getting in the way
Whenever we try, somehow the plan
is always rearranged
It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok..
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way
g
Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
and I watch them fall everytime
Another color turns to grey
and it's just too hard to watch it all
slowly fade away
I'm leaving today 'cause I've
gotta do what's best for me
you'll be ok..
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this
world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way
t
What about us?
What about everything we've been through?
g
What about trust?
t
You know I never wanted to hurt you
g
and what about me?
t
What am I supposed to do?
g
I gotta leave but
(Both)
I'll miss you
g
so
I've got to move on and be who I am
t
Why do you have to go?
g
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
t
I'm trying to understand
g
We might find our place in this
world someday
but at least for now
t
I want you to stay
g
I gotta go my own way
I've got to move on and be who I am
t
What about us?
g
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
t
I'm trying to understand
g
We might find our place in this
world someday
but at least for now
I gotta go my own way
I gotta go my own way


haha we almost cried at that part

gtg go do elit

argh still at qn 2

and part 2 for the review
im so not going to finish today

spent this morning engrossed in compiling presents
haha i so am going to be late in handing hw in

spent this afternoon trying to type an essay but was eating 麦芽糖 instead
haha ate a lot of it
i guess if i get sick i'll know why

then went out for dinner
ate mostly mushrooms
and other stuff like crabstick and fishballs and veggies
am still full

am off to try to finish my essays
[no such luck haha i bet i will be doing the presents again]

why am i doing so early?
im scared i will forget if i do late
and i promised i will give presents
i promised at least 3 alr

and yea i wasted my day away
maybe its time to let go
off to do essays!

we'll do it together yeah!

finished the tes and corrections
except summary
i guess i shld go do elit first

tmr morn
cos its so late
just reached home half an hr ago
finally settled some stuff

i realised i can cope with my schedule so far
but its getting worser now

ive had time for reading books,
compiling presents
looking for furniture
doing handicraft
packing
and hw
but not for studying
cos the times are slotted in and its hard to study on the go

i shld do elit tmr morn and germ tmr aftnn and sun morn
yup
off to do some summaries now
till my hair dries

was searching through stuff again:
take comfort in the fact that a friend cares about you and will be there for you
hold on to our dream
(:
didnt even rmb this until now

people you owe pictures
like from 3 months ago

progress: 6 TEs
w/o summary and supplementary

so anw spent my whole morning sleeping
like hello i desperately need sleep
so woke up around 11 sth and ate breakfast

most of my day: doing TE
playing piano with my sis
watching tv
and eating chocolates
haha

im over the no chocolate period
my hse has toblerone
cadbury
van houten
ferrero rocher
haha and i dno what else

tmrs another long long day

im guessing its another hw day

and then to suntec!

the water babies are getting more transparent
i wonder why

i have 13

die Nostalgie
ich weiß
gess fehlst mir
sehr

its just one day
whats wrong with me

add on to ytd:
ok so we played football after basketball when everyone else was bathing
got hit really hard with the ball
it still is a little pain now
oh and eehui wants to say that she was squashed
really badly haha

and then she said that he was really big after the photoshoot but he misunderstood
he thought we were saying its disgusting
and when we clarified
someone hinted that she was kissed before haha
but no proof

today:
to tell the truth i couldnt wait for the lit lesson to end
it was so boring
but the teacher is nice

math was quite slack
but yea we still did questions
and they were hard

ate a really healthy recess with unhealthy stuff
veggies and cheese and thousand island
what a funny combo
with donuts too

had kunst today
and then kim invented this weird expression that the guy later used time and again
eww-yuck
in a fast way
we were touching this paste thing to build architecture
and then the guy kept putting off making more
then the other person came and hugged him and wiped her clay-covered hands on his 'apron' but managed to get some on his shirt too
we stayed out of that fight
then eehui 'applied' 'butter' on my hands
like omg its so disgusting when it hardens
so ended up slopping each other too
and there was this person cutting hair for another
it was so funny
chopping stones was fun
we were invited by ppl to go back next week to help

bio was slack too
half the lesson there was no one there
and we were taking pictures
me of the class
kim and eehui of the textbook !!!
and so we went for lunch

it was veggie fried rice and veggie and spring rolls
ytds was so much nicer but today was ok la
poor junyi had 2 main courses

and then there was the survey
and we were given an email



bought one book and got another for free
whee

took pictures again

and then went to the shop
there were so many nice things there
and ex

i guess this is it

math was fun!
haha we were working as hard as them

sport was ok
1.5 hrs of basketball
the obstacle course was really tiring
it wore me out after the 3rd round or so
the game was ok but quite 'exciting'
understatement
apparently girls have to be competitive to do stuff
and our team did quite well despite having 2 good and tall players only

right aft the break
we took pictures
the guy went to hug the girls
and then kimberly replied with a 'du bist sehr groB'
he heard wrongly
haha
so after the lesson i wanted to say
'sie sagt, dass du nicht klein bist'
but didnt cos it sounded weird

physics was mostly hard to understand
he drew circles and parallelograms for forces
haha but we sort of got the idea anw

lunch was nice
seafood linguine with both sauces
and as usual, i didnt take the mystery juice

aft that the woman said no need to stay back cos we got no more lessons
tutor
i wanted to know what it was

went to the playground
and then to swing and turn
it macht sehr spaB
but it wasnt really stable

went home early cos got elections
went to buy chocolates and marshmallows and cookies
i finally ate chocolate today
and loads of sweets
aft i got home just now

cutting notes

today was fun!
though the first lesson was scary

so i woke up early in the morning
apparently 40 min before other ppl did
cos i eat

and then went off to thomson plaza
waited for awhile before we got on
was eating my second bun

went off!
were quite early
but cos we didnt register immediately so we didnt look too early

then had ethics
it was quiet la
literature during the language lesson was fun!
were bouncing jelly like balls

went to the basketball court during french and sat there
got hit by a ball
haha ppl like to scream even if the ball didnt hit them



bio was fun too
cell plasma haha
the periodic table is damn cool can



and then lunch
we were so late that we didnt have anywhere to sit
so they suggested we sit inside
and eehui said we looked like animal exhibits cos of the glass
and somemore all the ppl staring at us



english was about advertisements
there was this really funny one

and so we found out we cannot take bus out
walked down a hill in the rain
whee
like turn and turn
we didnt even know which way to walk
just chose the way leading downwards
and we made it! haha

took 74 home
kim was half sleeping

reached home and slept
told ya i wouldnt get to study

whee the rain view is nice


yay we drew on the floor in chalk
so cute right




My room!




had loads of fun today
like the drawing part
and sitting on yellow stuffed foam
and braiding thread
felt like a kid for just a few min there
standing at the window feeling the breeze hit against my face

its my 2nd day without chocolate
yay
didnt even eat lunch today
haha
neither did my family
too busy drawing and measuring

and tmrs the day
im just going to go without threats
since ive made a commitment
i keep

shes really pissing me off

anw picked out a bed and a table and chairs today

guess whos the first person im asking?
second?

so nervous
all i want is to be able to say simple stuff
like what i like and stuff
1 day left

exams are coming!
and really soon
whee im off to study
i hope

thank you so much tanja!