blocked nose

i dno if i can go sch
add a headache to the list
i think im at the throat inflammation state which will cause fever
cos it happened many times this way

jiayou

everytime theres change in weather i fall sick
like now just change abit only and im sneezing and blocked nose and stomach pains alr
grrr

shall go do german now
im trying...

argh walked streets today
still tired
how to last this week?
somemore still have to get keys and measure place
its going to take half a year to finish all
and its hard

couldnt sleep properly
am even more tired

germ geog ss math
seems so little when u list
so much when u do

have no idea what to do

im awake
i think
or am i dreaming now?

today was seriously tiring
i want to do germ now
but im tired
but tmr no time to do if i ever want to revise again
argh
fit in deutsch 2
its ex
and who knows how i'll do
once bitten, twice shy

maybe i just dont speak the truth
i shouldnt be trying to bring hope back

enttäuscht
verlieren
aufgeben

these words look so normal
so simple
yet they're backed with with truth

i was really embarrassed u know

am really tired

at least i finished the presentation today

i was wrong again
apparently when i didnt notice it was still bleeding
and still is

i cant cant cant cant

after 2 hours
the bleeding finally stopped
but it still hurts
alot

same with what happened

a long night ahead
stupid pictures
they dont make sense

anyways spent half the day translating 5 pages
so shi bai

had a really really long day

cant believe it was all just this morn...

whee
shall blog a happy post cos the author of midsummer wants me to have a happy cyber side!

ok thats so lame

anyways i didnt finish e learning
what on earth is the 360 degrees thing for?

haha got hw again
yay im going to do hw!
-.-

argh
this is so unfair

got to do elit now
so yea

i know i know
im going to get it
and im prepared

its like whats wrong lately la
yi bo wei ping yi bo you qi

i still think its weird
that they could actually show so much more concern in these matters than the ppl involved
i should really go and do elit

and im still trying
trying at everything i need to

ss graded
some sort of a rep i am
i will finish can

off to do what i do best at not doing
haha

thanks so much anyway
it was so unexpected
who knew sec 1s and 2s will wish u good luck automatically but not ur best friend?

lokyin *[[Im not perfect and neither are u]]*
here at 9:46 PM


Life.....

its just so weird

that post is still there
from 2 years back
and no, i still havent fulfilled my promise yet

stupid physics and math and chem and chinese and book review and elit

argh

aiyah the more i think, the weirder it gets
i know i know
dont think right
but its impossible la
u try

i dun know why its such a big deal to me anyway
it isnt like i can change the past
or even the future

i used to think one person could try
now i think she might as well give up

wells at least physics and ss can stop me from thinking for now

today made me feel even worse
first time was morning
then footdrill
then going home
its not getting better

shant blog too much

laminated the card alone ytd!
apparently mum was bathing and dad was sleeping
so had to do it alone
not in the mood to do stuff la
the cockroach made me lose interest in studying for chem
eww

ok im not free so yea
stupid card

theres a test
an elit thing i supp to finish
and chi

whee i learnt sth today
im a lousy listener when it comes to german
really lousy
i couldnt understand a thing
and the teacher thought i was just not paying attention
well who can pay attention if u cant understand???
am damn stressed la

this is so paradoxical
(see i DID pay attention in class)
im telling ppl to relax and enjoy life
and whats happened to me?
im a nervous wreck
i cant handle friendships properly
im acting weird in front of some ppl
nth i do seems to please other ppl
and im so busy yet i cant not go online
cos its the only time i get to talk nicely
and i love msging esp when it takes a day to reply

i so need help now
physics
chem
elit
german
ss

please, please dun add anything more
'to infinity and beyond' is so right now
hw

have double abdominal pains
argh

stupid book
cant even finish the small pages
what kind of student am i?
i cant even read a book of kindergarten standard
or lower
it has pictures la can

i cant
cant cant cant cant

stupid hw
how am i supp to finish the presentation and memorise it on time if u wont cease?

cant do well alr
i try ok
it just doesnt turn out fine

boring boring boring
this term got nth exciting anymore
bleah

this was quite a lousy week la
things really didnt go as expected
for some things, it was better
for others, it made me feel like i've failed in what i had to do
at least she's recuperating
that was the best news so far

this week made me realise
it cant go ur way
for every bad thing coming your way
there prob is a good one to balance it out
vice versa

so it was up and down
rollercoasters make me sick
and so does the puking scene haha

im sorry
i didnt mean to let u down
i really tried

aft i said she was behind and hung up
i realised she was in front
weird

so malu im like half laughing half crying as i walked home
then i saw her and started trying to look normal

14 hours
im so not prepared for this

still looking for the pink thing
i need it tmr
i've got the green one
and the one with sound

dno why i just felt like vomiting suddenly
like the stuff came up then i pushed it back down
eww

4 book reviews
5 qns
2 zuowen
chem wkst
due tmr and undone
just finished 7 graphs

2 years
i tried so hard
but now its sunk in
its just no use
why shld i even work so hard anymore?
i copied notes twice
sometimes thrice when have absentee
i coloured my notes so nicely
i tried to keep awake
but i didnt get what i wanted
its over

so many things are like going to happen
i dun want to go back to sch
we're changing places
and im not even supp to be there
and going to be asked where i went
hw? do i look like i did?

what really cheered me up is wad happened just before dinner
mum bought 2 jumbo sized things that were made of rubber
dno the name
it lights up when hit
it reminded me of chuzzle
i havent played for so long
but then again
who really has the time?