What am I doing. Why do I insist on doing things I know may not be the best for me. Am I really going crazy. 

I want to challenge myself. And there's no better way than to step up and do what I think is good for the comm. 

But why don't you understand? Are you scared that someday I'll go against your plans? Or are you concerned for my grades? Or simply, is that just your ego? 

Need to step back and relax. 

Been having nightmares. 3 in 2 days. What's happening to my mental health zzzz. 

Anyway please. Self stirring is not effective. Either you privately talk if you're seriously interested, or you stop playing with feelings like it's some joke. It's not really that fun. 

Ok finally let it out. Got to go back to studying for my quiz later. 

Why is it that the people who disillusion you the most, are those who matter the most? Why must they care, then not care anymore? 

Can I take it that this means you were never thinking the way I did? 

Like you said, it's a vicious cycle. We will just hurt others, who will in turn hurt others. And someday, we will get hurt again. 

Until then. Let's all just try our best not to. 

First time. There's a first time for everything.

It's nice to know that there's someone out there who appreciates you. But precisely because of that, you must give him back the respect and truth he truly deserves, not false hope. 

And for you. I sincerely wish you all the best, because good things come to those who try. 

Anyway. It's week 5. Time to catch up before it's too late again. 

i can't tell if you're serious.
but if you were, i'm sorry.
for hurting you if that was a real step.
it really is my own problem. screwed up.

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