of all the times to fall sick
it had to be last night

missed math paper today
was so unwell

tonight and tmr still supp to go studying
but the option seems to be gone

argh i dont want to fail chem
but i really really cant absorb anything now

tmr is when prelims start
and no, im not prepared

shall pack, cool off then sleep
or maybe a last min formula summary
idk

gp also tmr
but i dont think i'll really be preparing for it so yea

study hard, study smart
and most importantly, dont overstress
u too

and yes
failure is doing something nearly right, success is doing something exactly right
lets go!

i know it may seem tough at times
but dont ever, ever say give up
especially when u're already more than three-quarters the way there

people may make you feel lost and untreasured
but remember, there are always other people there for you
and no matter how down you feel, pull yourself back up
start over if its impossible to continue because there is always a way out

last day before prelims
jiayou jiayou

and please dont keep it in
if u're upset, just let it out

so yea went night study with zy twinkle and darren ytd
it was okay
except the next table was damn distracting

tired
shall sleep soon
half day break, then mug
4 days left

jiayou

okay so did i cheer u up, or was i failing at this too?

gp compre
phy spa planning ws
phy test
all tmr argh

jiayou
and always rmb to smile

at least testimonial for cca part is done

im tired

yea this morning i wasnt in the best of moods
but thanks alot

and to you, you totally made my day
seriously, i never expected that
or anything, for that matter
didnt even know u didnt know in the first place
so thanks too(:

and yea thanks to all those ppl who made my day today(:

jiayou, one week

hmm studying tgt seems to be becoming a regular thing
but no, i dont think i can finish

tiredd

so i went night study with them

very very sleepy
plus, leak

why did i study and rush through since the paper isnt even officially marked?

night shall go sleep very tired

today's study session was ((:

went to join them at the larger table
so then went to sit with them
started out very quiet
and i guess, a little awkward?
since we were like all studying the same thing yet everyone had different ways

okay so my name ISNT 73
haha
neither is it a dwindling number which finally increased to 67 again cos i finally found the answer
but i got it! so yea

its fun to study next to a very focused person who makes jokes at the apt times
but must try very very hard not to laugh in the library, or not get chased out

and so we left when the library closed
it wasnt that productive, but i guess better than at home

phy spa planning
chem 09 paper
chem time based practice

and theres still math ca, and chem extra lessons, and extra lecture, and handover
all squeezed into a tight schedule in the afternoon, must rush from one place to another

i am so tired
no not only cos i lack sleep

maybe i shld stop now
before it gets to this again

for a second, i wished what cy said was true
then uncertainty

i mean, i know it was sort of my fault too
but still
didnt have to make me feel THAT bad
although i did sense u helping indirectly
and the attempt to stop the awkwardness

maybe i was pissed that its the second time i saw that
or that there werent even enough seats yet i got the sms
or maybe what he said as a joke
or maybe cos i ended up sitting with him and his friends instead

idk

but the sms when i almost reached home alleviated it alot

thanks for believing in me

night study tmr
nexus night study

yea im at nitrogen cpds now
prob can do one more topic tonight

hmm anw isnt it awkward
when the A likes B, B likes C, and A, B and C are talking together?
just saying

so yea
night study means lack of sleep
whats more, phototaking tmr
hahaha

okay maybe i overreacted a little yesterday
but thanks alot, three of you
one who had no idea i was even emoing but still made me happy anyway
one who did and waited till i finished my food
and one who left but smsed to ask
and the both of you, thanks for the attempt by saying lame jokes and playing the coin thing
haha really

i still dont think i should go night study with them though
it's not like im that important in that too
idk, see first

当爱已成往事

(女)往事不要再提人生已多风雨
纵然记忆抹不去爱与恨都还在心里
真的要断了过去 让明天好好继续
你就不要再苦苦追问我的消息
(男)爱情它是个难题让人目眩神迷
忘了痛或许可以忘了你却太不容易
你不曾真的离去 你始终在我心里
我对你仍有爱意 我对自己无能为力
因为我仍有梦 依然将你放在我心中
总是容易被往事打动 总是为了你心痛
(女)因为你岁月中 我无意的柔情万种
不要问我是否再相逢 不要问我是否言不由衷
女(男)为何你不懂(别说我不懂)
只要有爱就有痛(有爱就有痛)
有一天你会知道 人生没有我并不会不同(没有你会不同)
人生已经太匆匆 我好害怕总是泪眼朦胧
忘了我就没有痛 将往事留在风中

haha so shall try to finish halogen and hydroxy by tonight at least
tomorrow carbonyl, carboxylic, nitrogen (:O)
and maybe electrochem if im feeling ambitious
or kinematics and forces

topics that i cant cope with.. so many
argh

whats the problem with me?
been emoing the whole afternoon
then cheered up a little during night study and now again

3+ months
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no, please dont let this happen to me again
at least not now, 2 plus months left to As

argh

today's night study was fun, and different

went with cy and anita
they asked alot of qns, i guess it does help haha
both of us

jiayou 2 weeks

so went to eat and saw the j1s eating together then went back and studied with the nexus guys it was quite funny, and the photocopying thing was epic tmr's phy ca? dont even get half of it again, hope and disillusionment seem to come together when it comes to stuff like that

am tired
not really physically, but mentally

no i dont want to play mind games anymore
nor do i want to try to understand what these people are thinking

why is it that everytime i talk to you, you make me tilt over to the other side, then unsure of my initial stand

jiayou go study
stop overreacting

shit 3 weeks

i need to work
now
NOW

shall start with organic chem mcq and try to master it by today/ tmr
then do all the hard topics

damn tired

so yea i cant finish studying in time
for prelims at least

guess i'll just have to push harder

tired
very

4 days of night study in a row
YES i lack loads of sleep
shall go sleep soon

night

theres less than a month to prelims
and no, i havent started
i cant find time to with tons of hw and tests

from tmr on, im going into mugger mode
at least 3 night study days a week
must finish at least 3/4 of the syllabus by prelims

jiayou

and like the smiley face i drew, i wish u happiness

99 DAYS OMG

shit i need to study harder
that makes only 3 months left

ncts were ...
but they're not the main thing, so work for the most impt one we've been preparing for so far with almost 18 years of our lives

jiayou

and stop overthinking! its not the right time