finished with the movie.
thought abt it and decided to go right out and tell the truth

first thing
im really sorry
though we can think abt this next year i think its better to say it now
it wont happen that way

oh anw went to hub today
it was so crowded
like its not even fully opened yet

and then
dont say anything if it cant be kept
its hard to keep ur expectations down

if im needed just for hw
then just tell me that
i'd appreciate the truth

even if i have to wake at 6.10
im staying till i can say it all

when i ask please answer

and no im not referring to u
i know u're not coming

and the sun doesnt set after 10.53
pm

tinky winky
happy new year too

and i got to confess sth
i saw loads of stuff that i shouldnt have seen
sorry

6 hours to sleep
how nice

im just typing this all out so tmr im starting a new year with no regrets and no hates
not going to admit who these ppl are

i'll miss my 3 tablemates
esp the one on my left who loves to draw big squished faces with small noses
and the whole laughing abt the scratching thing
and stepping on feet
its was really funny
haha
btw u really serious abt giving me a picture ar
i cant laugh during lessons
im going to fail

and then i've smsed someone throughout the hol
sorry
wasted alot of ur sms
and i know im slow and horrible

and theres a letter i put in there
so check ur stuff
i know u'll find it
thanks alot

and theres the one im so sorry to
i know i was a little mean abt it
shldnt have been so curious
thanks too

and seriously i know im short
quit finding ways to make me look shorter
i'll grow k

and then i loved 2003
but u wont ever know why
and wont be able to guess

and i've also wasted someones money by calling her
sorry
was bored
and u can go get ice for ur ears

keeping in touch isnt easy
but u still rmb me
thanks

those 2 who got me through my first few years here
thanks too
i rmb when i was bullied in art
u were there
though now we're not in touch
i rmb
and i kept all our photos in an album

ok recieved 2 smses alr

rmb a certain dark green envelope?
if u do, may the same be with u
it will be more than 2o
10 times more

happy new year!

watching herbie fully loaded

ok so its the last day of the year
month

i dun know what to say
sec 2
not what i expected
2004 was better
so yea cos i have to sleep early to wake at 6.10
will not be online for long

no i wasnt waiting for u
cos i know u wont be online

maybe im not so prepared for 2007

went to thomson plaza today
saw sandra at ntuc
no its not that sandra
the other one

and saw my last time teacher at popular
wanted to call her but she wont rmb me la
its like 7 years

thought i saw someone else at toa payoh hub too
but im not sure

wells i dont blame u if u dont come
afterall i DO talk too much
and i can go overboard at times

still got xiao shuo and some of midsummer nights dream
talk abt cutting it close

im like so stuck

will start on hw soon
but will still be online

u know how irritating it is for someone to be online and u cant see?

haha
lou's sentence;
mine dictionary hath this word that thou art unable to understand
which she commented as 'my shakespearen english isnt very good'

i dun think that was a promise
just something like a shake off
so i wont blame anyone for whatever happens

prob still till abt 11
got to wake at 6.30 tmr
no theres no important function
or any function for that matter

ok maybe im mad

starting on xiao shuo

lala shall spend my day not seeing stuff

anw the 3pm was really delayed
quite late la
but yea talked some

will she really make a good punching bag?
lou u're not helping
i dun want to laugh at the stupid face
im supposed to be concentrating
-unless ppl scratch their butt on my table-
wads weird abt the class posting?
i dun see it

the colds turning into a blocked nose
great now i cant breathe

why do ppl wake so early in the morning?
i sms ppl at 7 and they reply at arnd 9

xiao shuo how

so wad is that forest?

if u read the book carefully
u'll see something that doesnt belong to the book on the first page
unless it dropped
not applicable to others

lalala
saw class posting

finished you zhe me yan zhong ma
did a little more of elit

im sorry
its just that i promised someone before u
sorry
nearby?

ok so i didnt keep my resolution to not sms today
but hey i felt i needed to

6 days till sch reopens
i feel ready
cos at least i know a few people
please tell me ppl dont get brainwashed easily
it cant happen

think i caught a cold
yay just before sch reopened
such nice timing

and i think its acting up again

woah i havent finished my hw
but look at how many ppl did

target; finish midsummer nights dream and pg 57 of geog by tmr so i can do my xiao shuo

its just that i was a little unsure
if its early i can settle it

sch next wed
am i really up to handling all that?
i know there'll be help

what must we bring next wed?
like dno got wad lessons
or even if have lessons

haha
looks like i will have to change seat when sch reopens
cos somehow the teachers always think im short
im normal height ok
other ppl are tall

off to do hw

changed my blog colour again
cos SOMEONE - i wont say- said it was too bright and that black looks better

had a few 'interesting' conversations today
some with, some without the commas
i think i had 5
yea
which took about 3 hours of my time
haha told ya i wasnt concentrated
just felt bored of hw and decided to call ppl
or sms them

woke at 7:50
but stayed in bed for a few min
so tired
went down to start on hw
which meant i finished book review
4 to go
was a little distracted by a phone call
then went to eat lunch
was so tired fell asleep for 2 hrs
woke again to start again
was almost dinner by then
which meant i didnt really have time to do much

plan to finish you zhe me yan zhong ma so i can pass the book

shall check class posting again

ingredients of happiness:
simple tastes
certain degree of courage
self denial to a point
love of work
a clear conscience

im so mean
and so are u(:
but if u're going to be nice
so will i
u're a big influence remember?

can u believe a 20kg person can thump so hard on our floor?
my sister

2929292929
why is time so bad?
it doesnt let me get things done but doesnt allow time to move faster

and looking at my report book
i realise its not true
who says it has to be ur life?
u can balance study and play
well

ok maybe i contradicted myself a little
i sent a christmas card today
but dont expect anything cos its not to anyone u know

anw went to school today after lou smsed me and said i was in f
i was so kiasu i called and asked her help me check whos in
but still went to school after that
in the heavy rain
was supposed to give someone-i wont say who- photocopy
but ended up walking to sch with her instead
cant believe whos in my class
its for 2 years leh

anw im not about to put my blog add on friendster so the world can see
u want to come u come

at least i know a few people

did some parts of book review but was so tired fell aslp
woke with a splitting headache

anw i still do go online every night
very late

merry christmas everyone

i dun celebrate christmas
im not a catholic or christian
so yea dun expect stuff
and so we spent the day packing
and bringing stuff to salvation army
like our table which we didnt even use

got to send hw tmr

realised i might have to go back to school again
so hw hurry do urself
haha joking
better continue after i finish with the com

so much for less stress

wheres lou gone again ar

i miss 2004 too
it could have been the best pri sch year ever

hohoho
christmas eve

did loads of stuff
nth much i want to say though

how does my blogskin look?
is it too bright?
it looks a little bright to me but my com is alw bright

yay
finally done
ok i see some flaws but tell me wad else u can spot

the morning was terrible
i felt weak and my hands and legs were sore
somemore i can say the mood swing was damn obvious

went out after lunch to amk library
need to do book review
ya i know its a little late for that
but i think im going to use a book we alr have
extra thick
it has to have some phrases

my sis is asking me to treat the huge winnie the pooh
so cute sometimes

so dead
only have 10 more days
and 5 of them are hol
which means i have to do family activities

wish i cld say i fnished some hw today
no such luck

anw if u're going to insult me
do it in such a way i wouldnt find out

shld start on geog tb
but anw need to make some adjustments here

spent the whole day reading and translating midsummer nights dream
wells
at least finished it and did some of the tables

this will be a busy hol from now on
have to go library to borrow a overly descriptive book for book review
and photocopy book review paper to pass to someone
and pass the you zhe me yan zhong ma book
and on most public hol my parents like to go out
so there goes my hol
8 hw left
ok so maybe some arent hw
like finding magazines and love poems
and some like geog tb can be finished in an hr
and my parents are doing the yan zhong thing
and i alr read once just need another time
stuff like that

anw i was quite happy in the morning
those 9 smses and were really nice
as in they made me happy
and helped me loads
but then at night i wasnt so sure about it
cos i was like eating dinner
and my phone kept ringing
and my dad and mum told me to eat

now i know how lou feels right now
cos the same things happening

sometimes it feels kind of unfair

ok so im really hardworking
finished abit more
as in hardworking for me
extremely lazy for others

considering i spent the whole day trying to rid the pain
i did pretty much
re-did my geog flowchart for the 5th time
finally did it ok
finished the chemical formula and equations for chem
drew the physics stuff
completed chinese compre
and sat like a shrimp the whole time

going to find the love poems and lyrics
its hw

still working on blogskin
this time not looking for it
editing my own
might just fail again

weird
opened 2 stars
both are about happiness
so it leaves me with 3 things to type abt it

smile and the world smiles with u, laugh and people think u're on drugs

keep smiling, it makes people wonder what u're up to

happiness is a treasure u accidentally find


watched bambi2

found out just now that up till today i have not finished any hw
all got one or 2 qns dno how to do
but today successfully finished some

i correct what i said in earlier post
yanni was 2 min 25 sec late and
cp was only 2 min late

anw was really hardworking today
did loads of stuff
but dun thnk i can finish midsummer nights dream
its so unreadable

so dug out some buried papers and started on them
and completed my long unfinished stuff

woke to an sms
bounced up and cleaned up in 15 min

why flowchart and not mindmap?

did loads of things
but am too lazy to mention all

patrol outing was fun
thought not for the same reasons we expected
wanted to have bbq and play with sand
but it didnt quite turn out that way...

woke at 5.53
wanted to go back to sleep but didnt till 7
woke again at 8 and after that at 9
wanted to continue sleeping but the phone rang
and i did wad i alw did when im on the bed and the phone rings
i scrambled down the stairs
found my dad sitting at his com
asked him who that was
he casually said it was just a testing

was extremely early again
reached amk mrt at 10.40
i looked stupid standing there beside the construction
wearing an extra large tee
sch shorts
a backpack
and holding 2 big plastic bags

rachael and justine were found waiting at the gates
waved desperately and tried to get their attention
as usual, ppl thought i was crazy
yanni arrived 2 min late
cp arrived 2 min 25 sec late
huishan arrived loads later

were separated on the bus
sec 1s in front
the rest at the back
sec ones seemed to love waving at us
and laughing
at the back we were exchanging presents
yanni passed us the patrol and personal gifts
cp brought 2 bags
and yea
i gave the souvenirs and da pai bag

yanni held on to my lollipop for the whole bus trip
only returned it afterwards

ate lunch at macs
did our tradition thing
chilli, ketchup, ice, coke, sprite, curry and bbq sauce
sprinkled with salt
tasted quite nice though it sounds disgusting
made cp eat her 'cake' first
dip rather
then played scissors paper stone and twice losers have to eat
yn was quite willing to lose
though i lost first

walked to east coast park and rented rollerblades
all of us
but it was kinda hard
cos most ppl cant rollerblade
and the humps and slopes were hard to cross
must lean forward
haha fell twice on my butt
once was cos i thought i could step up but i flipped
the other was cos of a hump i think
anw we collided loads of times into each other
it was the fun part
and holding hands and falling tgt was fun too
its called teamwork
guess we can go out again soon to rollerblade?

but the sec ones were dying to return the skates
haha
it was fun wad

happens that we fund a candle on the beach
lighted it and stuck it on a cake-shaped sandpile
sang so loudly

went to macs to decide where to go in the rain
went to the arcade
shot people, aimed balls, and race car-ed
it was fun la

cancelled the bbq
i promise we'll return the money k

went home in 76
realised 135 was still behind us for a long time
talked abt many things
subject combi
night trail
and other stuff i shan't reveal

still havent guess who's in my class

rain is still pouring down
and my toe tips have blisters

pat outing!
if it rains lets play in the rain

only kam is online

have a big load to bring tmr
and extra large plastic bag
clothes
blah blah

at least i can go online today
and start working on it
will be finished by this week

i have my com back
turns out sth was disconnected

and now lou isnt here

shall work on my blogskin if no one comes online
its back to the days

maybe im a little slow
but watched confessions of a teenage drama queen
quite nice

want to watch read it and weep tmr but dno if have time
try

so bought a usb hub today
and some wooden mini poles
figured i'd make one for myself
aft i leave

will go and do wad i have to now

erms nth much to say

except that i burnt an omelette
and tried to fit in my meals and my medicine
nth much happened
nth i want to talk abt anw

shall blog now so if can go online later can talk

still havent found it

should change my blogskin right
its getting old

patrol outing on 18
why am i scared it'll rain?

my sis is actually not watching disney
woah

i kinda went to doctor just now
she said i had gastric problems
and all along i thought it was something serious
gastric i knew long ago
so now im banned from eating
no meals
haha
cos she said no this no that
and thats all i eat and drink
and so i am curbing gastric by eating less

its mar's birthday
just wished she knew i am wishing her a happy one

and its going to be dad's birthday soon

have to go now
got to do a graph and write a story and finish my compre and blah blah

at least i finished wrapping my books
all
even my own guidebooks and the german dictionary
should have done that long ago
yay
feel so accomplished
at least i can do something

and now i feel worse than ever that i was home on that day

had some time here again

k went to the dentist with my sis
she was so scared
like dun even dare to open her mouth can
and its her 3rd time

did loads of stuff today
bought own books
but still have to go back to buy sister's cos they are 'still printing'

really scared
3 months
anxiety might be a cause
but how can i not be anxious?

just love my own com screensaver
slideshow of all my fav pictures
some way or another

now im sharing and taking turns on this com

I WANT IT FIXED

so bored
except hw and tv,
nth much to do la

will be on a telephone spree
haha

no time to blog la

my com broke down
dun think i can be online soon

forgot to say ytd tt i watched open season
quite nice

anw went swensons today
its 10:21

no ones online again
tmr sure have
just bear with it...

blog hopped ytd
found out some really shocking things
blogs are meant to be public la

abit sleepy
have been setting my alarm at 10.30 so i wouldnt oversleep
but i dun sleep early
usually in the mornings now

i like wad my cousin said
no more stormy nights, no more cloudy days
hope so

dun feel like starting on the rest of hw

what happens when u get scared half to death twice?
-u have 1/4 of ur life left

have to pick some time to wrap my books
maybe next week
after i buy more plastic

when i started being online every night even when im extremely busy
i wanted to prove my sentence
that i'll be there

type so long, now 10 pm alr

back to copying recipes and enveloping cards

this hol is so boring

might have things to do but they boring me out

no one online
starting to miss louisa's blocking me

miss them
at least come once in a week can

happy birthday

no i didnt forget

maybe i dun have the guts
but some things are better left as they are

its 9 of december

did loads of stuff today
cant rmb alr
all i know is i've been dreaming
and i usually dont
wonder wads wrong with my subconscious mind

off to do other stuff
many things have to be done in 1 hr and sth(:

haha not much to say la
busy now

pouting:)

boring hol

bored
cant believe it
feel like having a typing contest
or duel
or one of those lame repeating phrases

did a bit more of math
and made erasers
my cousin gave me a clay that can e used as erasers after heating

my sis is irritating me
grr

headache

had another weird dream last night
its strange how i always think about someone the night before
and then dream of that person
in a situation i never thought would happen
and then wake up thinking i want to dig some old stuff or another out
-dug up a load of photo albums-
its just so strange

3 more pictures and i'll have 2 frames
have collated my best pictures
though after re- taking it it doesnt look as nice

spent the whole day without cable and broadband

my hol but their exams
their hol but my exams
sigh

did a little math

this hol is so organised
nov have activities
dec have nth to do

cant believe it
i lost my pass

check physics and chem
done!

finally got down to doing hw
have been busy since the hol started
too busy
yesterday was the first free day
but was so tired
so started today
i know many ppl have done quite alot
but hey
they didnt have such a tight schedule

still have to buy books

thats alot to read
i bet its heavier than my sis

one month left
4 weeks exactly
hw hw hw hw hw

tmr cannot watch tv AND go online
what can i do?
no its not banned
one day of nothing to do

i know what suggestions i'll get
do hw
read and wrap ur textbooks
whats new?

saw this at the airport-
a friend understands ur past, believes in ur future, and accepts u for who u are now

anw have to start on hol hw soon
but dont feel like it
maybe tmr
cos tmr will be the first free day of the hol aft i got my books
first free day of the hol actually
but i guess its like that

so sian

have to upload my pictures into the com
and the videos
and install han4 shen2
cos the last time failed

i give up on trying to talk to them
they never reply
maybe cos of the language thing
only 2 do

wonder where i can put those stuff
scared SOME PERSON will break them

now im wishing to go out
not get cooped in
patrol outing please come soon

sometimes i feel like im forcing ppl to do stuff

day 1
slept after reaching
so late

2
disneyland
sad to say its so small
and that i didnt really have much fun
my sis did though
but when we went back to hotel at 7
and saw the fireworks
it was nice
have many videos

3
ate dinner with my cousins after moving into another hotel
im getting taller(:
as they kept saying years ago
i'll grow
catching up

4
met with my other family
there were large buns
were sent home in a big car

5
grandma birthday
ate a really nice cake

6
visited my grandpa and grandma on maternal side
ate with grandma on paternal side
visited my jiu4 gong1 in hospital

7
visited my aunt in hospital
ate with my parent's friends

8
back


one thing u wont ever believe
in 4 days
we bought 22 pounds of tomatoes
cherry
thats like so much
the storekeepers must have thought we were crazy

recieved many presents
and a simple pattern;
given by girls
only they song4 li3 wu4

everyones offline
so bored
talk to 6 ppl
then all off

glad to be home

and msn-ing my cousins

i only have a few years more to pick
which is home?

my poor com
another few days of not touching it
will still be online though

love my com too much

latest additions to my stuff toy collection(:
a large blue soft dog
a football that says toiiinnnggg that yn loves dearly
a small bear wearing a pink jacket

have started on doing stuff that equally make my hands hurt
dun understand why it always has to
just cant think of anything better

my sis is making friends with the luggage:|
cute when shes talking to herself
not cute when someone twice that age is

got a list to make and stuff
sigh
its going to be a long week

learnt a few things ytd
-a bucket of sand is VERY HARD to shift from 1 place to another
-never attempt to remove small bits of charcoal from a bucket of sand
-aluminium foil may look light but may not be
-just dropping detergent into ur bag isnt a gd idea
-theres no place like home

anw out of the letters i recieved
1 was irrelevant
1 was unexpected
2 were replies

so tired
cant slp now

just came back from camp just now

day 1
woke at 5am
arrived at 6.30
pitched tents
tied gadgets
had night trail but didnt go

day 2
woke at 5.30
with shoulder ache
had pt
very tiring
did 4 sets of 1 round 10 jumping jacks 10 squats for inspection
had competition
went out to buy food
fish is so ex
had treasure hunt
didnt dare to go many places

day 3
woke at 5.15
did duty
had to fry patties
butter buns
slot patties
pack lettuce
oreos
and package
can work in factory alr
went for hike
walked quite long
but cos some enthu some not so speed quite different

day 4
woke at 5
labelled stuff
patrol logbook
inspection
took down everything

waited quite long for cp to pack
then went to eat
and empty the bucket
and put newspapers and wood and bottles
so tired
must practice pt more

hand and legs very pain

camp tmr
my poor com

have to label stuff

oh ok

sometimes i feel so wad la can
like tt time i had jacq's bottle
and i wanted to leave it there
almost did
but brought it home
and tt time during the --
and i was asked
and i didnt

some things cant be said online

had a boring day

went to bring my sis to dentist
she scream for nothing

the socks are so LOW
wads the point of selling sch socks la
its lower than mine?!!?!
small coud fit my sis
perfectly
standard can

preparing for camp...

if turning 14 is so hard
i dun want to
if every year it gets worse
i want to stay young

had precamp again
our tent looks bigger than np but less sturdy
will have to find out when we go in

Quiet, deep, emotionally complex and intensely private, you are not a person who is easy to get to know and understand. You are extremely sensitive but disinclined to show it, and you allow only a special few into your inner world. Like a wary animal, you are cautious and mistrustful of those you do not know until you "sniff them out". You are very, very instinctive and intuitive. You usually have a strong, immediate gut reaction to people, even though you may be unable to clearly articulate why you feel as you do. Your feelings and perceptions go deeper than words

woke really early this morning
and it was voluntary
didnt need my mum to wake me
i just cant believe
the first person to rmb and tell me
was actually someone i knew from 5 days ago
THANK YOU WENJING
so reached very early in school
saw yanni lugging the thing
so malu
THANKS LA
anw had precamp today
topo was quite ok
axemanship came as a surprise
cos i usually cant chop
but today seemed fine
and 1 year ago
i was desperately trying to pass
first aid was fun
learnt most of it in civil defence alr
but couldnt rmb
ya i was asked to be casualty
so they sort of took advantage of the chance
ouch la can
went back to get my football
toiiinngg
haha
and ate la
had to wait for others to finish also
went gateway
took down the big tripod and untied it
untied ladders and the bridge also
wenjing kept hinting
thanks la
but if they care they will know one
and so rachael laughed
and we laughed
she laughed
we laughed
haha
and yea
kaiying made it sound like my idea abt donuts and bandages
went home
erm did something
but u will find out

ate again
no not meals
and slept

for some funny reason there isnt a patrol pres
but nvm i usually find

other info other blog

precamp today
tired but on msn(:

talking abt stuff
yn online

dilluted mud water is better than mud
it can be used to wash and is soothing
mud is sticky and cracks when hard

tmr precamp

and scolding brght and early

got a thing to scan
an email to send
and loads of questions
to ask

anw went out today
funan
bought a huge dog
soft toy
its added to my bed collection
its light blue
and very cuddly
can be considered my gift
and went to buy ping pong balls

had a really sad dream this morning
maybe i've been thinking too much
but i cant, or wont do anything
cos i dno wad i can do

so anw i got my first choice and so did almost everyone i asked so far
and confirm 2 ppl going same choice as me
maybe diff class
but we all taking elec geog
and if they spilt its prob elec geog elec hist
so hope for the best

got loads to do
-scarf
-chem hw
-phy hw
-math hw
-math mensuration
-you zhe me yan zhong ma?
-san guo yan yi
-li jie wen da
-xiao shuo
-elec geog
-meal bag
-read all textbooks

grr

allocation is out
most ppl got 1st choice
cant wait to find out who they are
but a longer hol pls
nv do hw yet
everyday go out around 8 and come back 6 smth tired

anw still want to know wad ppl go wad class

tired la
its been many days of waking extra early and sleeping extra late

got to sew scarf now
bb

just realised today is 10nov
which means what we said had passed
sry nv realise earlier
HAPPY BIRTHDAY

so anyway had gateway tday
had quite a gd time
didnt go macs during lunch
stayed in school
first time find out talk so much one
the playground part was fun
esp cos i didnt dip my shoe into mud like ytd
and i pushed the swing
and also found out tt shes scared of heights
and then kept recieving calls
aiyah playing where got feel vibration

tmr have to wake early again

its so fun getting scolded fr something not ur fault!
im just tired

add 8 bowls of soup- whole pot- to the list

thanks for being there this aftnn

the time to get stressed
is when u're tired and sick
and no one cares
turning crazy
eat eat eat
lack of sleep
cry

have been waking before or at 7 sth for 10 days consecutively now
and sleeping at 12
seriously lack sleep

ok today:
woke at 7.10
went out bright and early
songleader meeting at 9
went to the playground to sing
'save us from embarassment'
anw why be a songleader if so easily embarassed?
have to sing in front of the sec 1s leh
they forced me to sing solo this year
so we just sang loudly anyway
its preparation
and anw we were the only ones singing loudly
some were soft
some well, didnt sing
sec ones were actually quite good
a little soft but good
at least they sang
meeting ended at 11
jacq was singing ding dong bells
stayed at the playground till 12
and went to guide hq
bought blue cord
and then went home
ate lunch
talked 1hr 12min with yn
ate 2 packs of cookies
6 packs of seaweed
1 pack potato chips
1 pack of noodles
1 corn tube
1 pack cotton candy
2 sour sweets
2 bowls spaghetti
and its only been 2 and half hours
still got time to go

online now

to love or to hate

yea binded also
still not done

am so not free in nov
fully booked

yet my dec is empty

and there goes another time
every year is like tt

so anw went for gateway meeting

and saw some wet punk on the way home
too bad it was so wet
couldnt dry it on time

when u're standing there
and its u against the world
u nv know what exactly to do

I FOUND IT!!!
the pendant around my jie's neck?
i found cheaper ones at plaza singapura
yay
but im not buying
my birthday coming soon
hint hint

anw went camp patrol outing
had quite a gd time

am going crazy over yahoo messenger
its FUN

can talk on messenger
can use few messengers tgt
sth i nv knew

went to vivo city
it was crowded and confusing
quite a lot to see

now i have yahoo, windows and windows live messenger
windows live can talk to yahoo windows and msn
yahoo got audibles and moving backgrounds
windows is the oldest. nth much but different

so i can talk to everyone

ok i may be tired
but im still happy

woke at 6 something
did the usual preparation
went out at 7.30
reached amk mrt with 5 min to spare
went toilet
came out at the right time
went off to city hall to change mrt
went to paya lebar
got off at 8.30
waited till 9.04
the person living nearest is late
went to malay village at 9.15
realised they opened at 10
were entertained by an uncle
got into malay village museum and kampong days
we paid more than others
may paid the most though
her part
scholars
and another ticket
if not for the uncle we'd left long ago
then went for lunch
ate nasi lemak
everyone did
except trina
she say bu4 hua2
so she ate our fishes
then kept saying want to buy food from mcd
haha
anw thanked them and left
went to parkway parade at 2pm
and followed the others on a detour
so tired
checked the map we walked a whole round
2.35 reached
and on the way trina ran off to buy food
3 mcdonalds
anw reached at snagged a table
and went off
we picked seashells
and stones
they went in and wet themselves
oh halfway through we smelt something fishy
literally
and we walked towards it
we saw- get this - A DEAD AND DECOMPOSING CRAB
with flies and ants around it
haha so it was gross
and we decided to bury it
so the flies can leave
and then we walked again
and smelt something fishy
literally
and we saw- get this again -
A DEAD AND ROTTING FISH
looked like a sardine
not sure
and repeat the flies and ants part
so we buried it too
and we were grossed out
happy i wearing shoes
and continued picking shells
and then went off to buy big gulp
and sat on the man made conglomerate
or whatever its called
and watched the sea while chatting
and the giant egg yolk
and then went off to pick stones to throw
may found a huge one
kill fish ar
somehow it turned into a sandball building contest
and turned into a sand turtle building contest
anw we had one tiny turtle but they stepped on it
'accidentally'
and ya i saw the biggest seashell so far with pattern
ahhhhh
and so we walked back with some shells
and suddeny at the same time
chinpei and i both saw the same shell
it was huge
so nice
u owe me a picture
so anw we walked off
and we walked on the ledge
decided it wasnt such a good idea
crossed over
then crossed back
and took 76
sat there and finally cooled down
talked the way home
and found out i not the only one who had a headache
and went to thomson plaza
and guess who i met there
my pri 2 form teacher!!!
i thought after she retired i wont see her alr
lala
and then now im like talking to my cousin
yay

quotes from today
'i grow early u grow late not any better'
'u are not in the position to speak'
'who wants sweets?'
'my sweets not nice meh'
'bu4 hua2'
'u stupid one la'
'i no money'
'are u sure u noe the way?'
'mcdonalds!!!'
'eh ur favorite shop leh, 1 dollar only'
'so many joint shells!'
'conglo- something la'

haha

dipped the wires
the liquid was 400 degrees
Celsius
removed the rubber too

red

have to wake early again tmr
sigh

ok no time to say much
have to wake early tmr again

so many comments lately

800 long wires
600 short ones
longest reached 38.25 inches
100 of them
1400 wires
its enough to kill
started at 8.30
ended at 5.30
half hr lunch
kept going toilet
light was too bright
i cut sorted recut grouped and tied 1400 wires
man do i need rest
still have to remove rubber and dip
and i thought hw was hard
at least can rest tmr
ugghhhh
first day

a day in the life

Today is so boring
I might as well be snoring
Because I’m living up that dream
A zombie with no react
Somehow I’ve run right up track
So insane from club mundane
It makes me wanna scream…

CHORUS
It’s a day in the life
It’s a link in the chain
Beginning the ending
They both look the same
Round and round
No new ground
It’s a day in the life
A redundant game
Winning or losing
There’s nothing to gain
Round and round
No new ground
It’s a day in the life

It’s just so simplistic
Trying to be optimistic
The part of me won’t give up hope
Well it’s my own dysfunction
That always leads to nothin
But it seems it’s the only way
The only way to go…

CHORUS

Cause nothing ever
Changes any more
It makes me wonder
What tomorrow’s for

CHORUS

Ohoh ohoh ooooohhhhh
Ohoh ohoh ooooohhhhh

Ohoh ohoh ooooohhhhh
Ohoh ohoh


had math extra lesson
gateway

just watched the cd
omg its
its nice

except for my pic

thank u

anw am tired
still got loads of hw to do

if only u knew

to love or to hate
is in a matter of timing



na-na
You're building a case against me
Prosecutor, judge, and jury
We had this conversation in your head
'Cause I wasn't there, you made up what I said-
Or what I would of said; you know me so well
You heard how I am and how I'm going to heaven knows
We've never had this conversation, or should I be calling it a condemnation?
'Cause you're not listening to me

(Chorus)
So na, na, na, na, na
That's all I'm gonna say
'Cause na, na, na, na, na
Made up your mind any way
Na, na, na, na, na
There's nothing I can do
So na, na, na, na, na
Couldn't we be friends if not for you

I feel like a teacher from Charlie Brown
All you hear is that "wah, wah, wah" sound
Maybe I'm a Pokemon, Pikachu
Cause that's what comes out when I'm talking to you
You're a crusader; you've made me your fight
Your superhero name is Mr. Right
Instead of trying to understand
You show all your friends how wrong I am
You’re not listening to me

So na, na, na, na, na
That’s all I’m gonna say
‘Cause na, na, na, na, na
Made up your mind any ways
Na, na, na, na, na
There’s nothing I can do
So na, na, na, na, na
Couldn't we be friends if not for you

Can’t we be friends
Why does it end
Before a word is even heard
I look at you, your attitude
Why can’t you see
That it’s not me?

Oops, I did it again, I see
The person I’m talking about is me
Assuming you’re the enemy
In the crosshairs of my verbal Uzi
No matter who wins, we both lose
No matter who starts, we both choose
To keep it going on and on and on
But let’s start listening and see

La, la, la, la, la
La, la, la, la, la
Sorry that it got this way
La, la, la, la, la
Next time I won’t let it stew
La, la, la, la, la
Couldn’t we start over me and you?

omg the hols have just started and no one is online
isnt life just weird

subject combi done
have to hand in form

so quiet for the hols

wad happened to my last post?
i published it
no fair

if this goes on im moving
it just wont listen to me

i didnt blame u ok
it just came out the wrong way
so no point saying sorry

bought alot of things today
just couldnt find the books
am just going to close my eyes and pick

submitted alr
please let me get into tt class

pure or elec
hist or elit-

went popular to find the syllabus but they blocked it

so little time left to decide

spent the whole day staring at my report book and the books needed and subject combi
who said i didnt have concentration
anw wasted many many smses today so may not reply

dreamt alot lately
readers digest says its alot on my mind
i didnt use to dream

my holidays are packed
or jammed
whichever word sounds nicer
i have conflicting appointments
will have to settle it soon
but not now

dun ask me wad i want
if u want to know go find out

just made a ton of calls

chemphybi

i think i started out wrong for science
i cld have been better
but i missed the first test
which led me to be confused for the rest
its been 5 going 6 years

ungirly person who becomes girly
aft talking to someone

got to try harder

guess im really that tired
and those really are eye bags
woke at 12 when my sis came in to tell me to go out for lunch
all i did was eat, watch tv and use com
so slack
starting to think hol is busier than i thought
have to reorganise my notes
and have to go out once every day or two
who says hol is relaxed

still havent decided yet so dun ask me

stupid -o-f
-s-
nv inform

not going to say

cant decide

no point
im still stupid

im sorry
really really sorry
i shoudnt have made u come when i havent seen the sms

had an ok day
spent the whole morning online

then went 3rd lang
they were very rough
throwing scrabble tiles
hitting the burgers
had fun
although it WAS 5 boys against 2 girls
excluding me

somehow i dno how im supposed to act

nth much happened
just bought food
dried food
ever tried dried food/ fruit?

labelling stuff

sh*t
cannot
cannot

and im talking not abt ec

wth
its my fault again

shall play chuzzle as an attempt to make me happy

my diarys gonna be full

anw didnt do much today

yeah

when u want to do something but u cant
and no ones restricting u
just urself
and u want to do something against ur conscience
but u wont

is there some problem?
blogger's giving me this weird blue colour

preparing for camp alr
trying to buy some stuff

went out today for dinner
and guess wad happened in the toilet?
i was in a cubicle and this woman walked in
then she started singing very loudly
and i was trying to either
1. not laugh
2. muffle my laugh
and then i couldnt stop laughing
how embarrassing
then i ran out and laughed all the way home
and i saw her
she had thick makeup and a black shawl
kinda scary la
but her singing put tt off

anw im still mad

i couldnt sleep last night
i spent it in front of my com
but when my mum forced me to
went to my bed

my pillow
it was cold when i woke
and damp
its been a long time
since i last cried myself to slp
u'll never know what u did

"Beyond The Sea"
by Robbie Williams

somewhere beyond the sea
somewhere waiting for me
my lover stands on golden sands
and watches the ships that go sailing

somewhere beyond the sea
she's there watching for me
and if I could fly
like birds on high
then straight to her arms
I go sailing

it's far beyond the stars
it's near beyond the moon
I know beyond the doubt
my heart will lead me there soon

we'll meet beyond the shore
we'll kiss just like before
happy we'll be beyond the sea
and never again I'll go sailing

I know beyond the doubt
my heart will lead me there soon

Oooh we'll meet, I know we'll meet beyond the shore
we'll kiss just as before
happy we'll be beyond the sea
and never again I'll go sailing

No more sailing

So long, sailing, sailing
No more sailing

Goodbye, farwell, my friend
No more sailing

So long, sailing
no more sailing

No more
farewell

Auf wiedersehen

No more sailing

No more sailing

No more
No more

No more sailing

No more

one more time

No more sailing

Yeah

watched finding nemo
it was so nice
esp the german part
there were 5 people in the theater
2 girls
2 boys
2 teachers
and frau tan chose to sit behind me
could hear them talking and laughing
wanted to watch mostly martha
mum didnt allow
she say haze must go home early
so now i've watched every movie except
mostly martha

apparently no one knows how im feeling
i WAS happy
until i saw something
u wouldnt want to know

Dory: Come on, trust me on this one.
Marlin: Trust you?
Dory: Yes, trust, it's what friends do.

i am still mad
just not at the world

fische sind freunde, nicht food
never catch the last word

just keep swimming

well at least someone understands how i feel abt someone in our class
its nice to noe u're not the only one in the rain
theres shelter nearby but it doesnt welcome u

maybe im kidding myself
im the only one
u're not in this
she treats u normally

maybe i thought too highly

maybe my 'nice' actions were not needed
i was trying to do wads right
maybe i shd have left it
then i wldnt have to offend ppl

consider the actions forgotten?
its hard
every tried being good but mistaken as bad?

morning was quite boring
clapping isnt fun
esp when u do it for hours

tea appreciation was so expensive
20 dollars for a cup

movie was nice but watched before
so no suspense

my afternoon was erm...
can i say interesting?
went for patrol meeting
talked alot
and now have to buy essentials
and then rushed to the movie
das wunder von bern
[the miracle of bern]
brought chips and jacket again

found a cut
ouch
it hurts
u'll never guess

oh and i heard many interesting things today

am currently online but busy
not that i really am
if u read the sub font

am angry at many people
but cant say here

ikana

please let the tea appreciation be fun

well the nosferatu show wasnt that bad
for the benefit of those who dont noe german
its dracula
watched with a girl in my class
german class
she was quite funny
and we walked home tgt
well not exactly walk
how can someone walk when she lives at lakeside???

brought chips AND a jacket
was totally prepared
and then this light spoilt and added to the atmosphere
blink blink
and people keep opening doors,
causing us to jump at exciting parts
there was a big turnout
mostly boys
i guess they are more interested in horor than us
and MANY teachers were there
and they were discussing something

if interested in the plot go watch

will prob miss das wunder von bern
meeting
but watch alr anw

i guess im the only one not watching
have fun

and i told u thats how they arrange the prizes
and i was right
maybe when u're there u feel u're the best

seem to be mad at the world
for no good reason

forgot to bring jacket
so didnt go today
this is called learn from experience
anw im watching on fri
both
mostly martha and findet nemo
but i dno la
thur got meeting
nosferatu i dun really want to watch
i mean
its horror
and i am not sitting alone in the centre of the freezing auditorium to watch a mime that is black and white
or maybe i am
must bring jacket
must bring

btw she was so right
3 places
2 ken ding reserved alr
that leaves 9 to fight for 1 place

told u not to hit my back
if it gets worse its ur fault

shld i move?
blog

where r the booklets?
must start to practice
2 months left


i kana

the movie today right
i was like the only girl i knew who showed up

unless u count denise

which by the not showing up
u can infer smth

but i enjoyed the movie
possibly more than the other way round
and i shall keep my appointments
unlike some people

i dun want an expanation
its prob lies

still hurts

working on tuberculosis still

went to doctor
pressed my back till dno wad
and its relocated
but still at the wrong place
unfortunately

it hurts when i sit
when i move
and even when i walk

did u ever try feeling mad and tired
then peaceful suddenly
then mad and tired suddenly again?
its stressful

and now i have to stick patches all over to relieve pain

anyway almost everyone went to see doctor today
all for diff reasons

ok is this a fight?
and im telling u im not weak anymore

well theres tuberculosis waiting for me to do
and 2 diseases more
havent even decided wad to use

so bb

dislocated backbone
arms and legs so sore they hurt when u move or even try to sit
burnt face
some sprains here and there
it isnt stopping me
it cant

those tins were killer

anw for some reason
the bus crawled so slowly tt when i lugged the box home, it had just reached

ta da

and those grades were dropped like bombs
scary

and the camp patrol was ok
but quite scary when they announce

there goes anorexia

doing logbook

u noe how it feels?
its called passion

and how it feels when someone tells other ppl she doesnt like me

games is tmr
so nervous
ok i know
floorball's so fun

am happy for reasons u cant imagine
and it isnt wad happened today either

it really is not offending?

oh im stressed out all of a sudden

am online again
ta-da

ok cut the formalities
im alw online

off to work!
ok not off
just work

am online again
really bored
just had a wrestling match with 2 'characters'
and impersonated each other
and pretended to be someone else
and irritated jacqleow
and had a typing contest
am out of ideas

didnt believe they would fight actually
all the grade changing and stuff
haha
quite fun
lets try it again sometime

i gave my cousin wrong info
ohno

haha talked so long ytd
still went to talk today

so tired of laughing

aiyoh my mortal going to have mortal alr and i still havent recieved the 2nd letter
how many months alr lor

ok cant talk much
talked too much alr(:

my ears dont hurt can
ok so they feel suffocated
but not pain

shall blog soon
after i get over the 1 hr of none stop talking
haha

am back again
exams are over!
now can start on other things alr la

ans to e last post
soil rock in
get it?

if we fail its e teachers fault

harhar
very funny
well at least i have an answer to my next geog paper
the qn of
how do u reclaim land

well at least the exams are over
can go worry abt other stuff now
i think

did anyone consider how i felt?

the teacher said no need to study lun zheng fa and shuo ming fa one
now at 10 pm
she passes down a msg saying need
what a RESPONSIBLE teacher
right?
must have united front

still ask us to write zuo wen on ze ren gan cos we forgot our hw
this is an EXAM hello
this concerns our grades
i thought she wanted us to top the level or smth

some kind of teacher

anw guess who i met this morn on way to sch?
ok afternoon
she was walking up the ave 2 way
funny
carpark 26 wld have been much faster

got to study cant talk
she better not try anything else at 12 midnight
****t

another major exam down
2 left

for some reason am feeling down
i wanted a b3
but its impossible now

was 'mistaken' as a pri sch student
the auntie tell me to walk tt way
but i wasnt e only one

do i look like i have a choice?

this really isnt the place to say anything private

shall be vague
its easy to misinterpret good intentions. especially when u're angry. its hard to say u're the one at wrong. even if u are. and when some parts are cut off, its easy to make the wrong conclusion about something said. when u try really and truly hard, u feel its very unfair if it doesnt go the way u wanted it to. when u're a perfectionist, its hard to settle for anything less than perfect. but its possible, cos nothing is perfect. and u settle. but sometimes u try too hard. it goes overboard. u tend to blame people if u really tried but it didnt work out, mostly cos u cant see ur own mistakes. some people u can forgive easily cos they're important and u cant lose them. some u cant, it all depends.

looks like i shld go to e other one

ordinary riches can be stolen. real riches cannot. in ur soul are indefinitely precios things tt cannot be taken from u

why waste the effort?

was doing math revision just now
at my study table
found myself staring a a certain almost empty jar.
and a small transparent container
i know where it came from
havent opened it yet
will i ever forget?
please get rid of the mental burden
i have to pass math

no mood to study alr
how bad must i feel to stop it?

i know it took effort
loads of it
i know im not worth the effort

at the height of laughter, the universe in flung into a kaleidoscope of new possibilities

maybe, just maybe now i can study

i know, deep down in ur heart
im not forgiven
there're barriers there
i know they wont be removed
im sorry

history is history
it so is

maths
i am so dead
i need a B
desperately
please

am so tired.
still got math
i thought it was supp to be easy
please let me have a b

science
die alr la
i cant cant get a c
math
aim higher
got to reach b

history is not going to beat me this time

u used to tell her everything. but when u were backstabbed, u want to find someone to talk to. u cant seem to find one. then u realise it is so unfair, so biased. u want to turn back but like valves, theres no backflow. u want to find someone that has chemistry with u. u want to get ur past either off u or back. u try.

cpyrtd ly
nth to do with anyone

so mad
dont think its so easily done. u started it. who says im tt nice. if its not my fault then i wont apologise.

spent the whole day trying to finish science
i tell u its a lie
bio is e hardest to finish
phy? finish in 1 hr
bio? 2 days

when u are trapped in ur own memories. when u cannot forget. when u get a headache from all that. u wonder why. u ask. but u dont get an answer. u wont. u try to understand but fail to. u try to work ur way out but u cant find the key.

copyright ly

chem

celebrated my sis birthday
ate a ton of mushrooms

studying bio
realised u cant memorise that pile of info

sometimes when u want to do something, u look back and see the time u were hurt. and u never did it again. even if u wanted to do it badly. u remember the hurtful words. u try to hit the delete button. but there isnt any. u try to get out of that painful memory. but u cant. u feel like its a nightmare u cant wake from. u wished life were easier.

copyrighted lokyin

btw i won a disney contest
recieved a free t-shirt
my sis was ecstatic

science

another 2 down
i dont really understand
wads e point of making a list when u dont bother abt it
dun update it

wads e use

shouldnt i be studying?
yes
but hey i am
sort of

so many broken promises

u promised that we would talk
but ur status says busy

u promised to reply my questions
its way past ur dateline

u promised me life would be easy
that things cld sort themselves out

u promised

when life brings u down so much it cant get any worse. suddenly something happens and makes u think life can and will get better. u get hope. but only to cause disappointment again. u get a little better to be dragged even lower than ever before. u think its hopeless to try. u believe what u think. it gets meaningless to try anymore. life, is and forever will be, unfair. never wanted something so much in ur life. yet u cant get it. u look back and see the little kid with a happy smile. u fail to realise u were once that happy. it dawns upon u that u had problems but cld solve them. u realise u were a weak person, always apologising for something not ur fault. but now u've changed. u wont bend down to people anymore. u remember the bad times u had, the people who once bullied u. but u dont hate, u wonder why they are such bullies. u understand they do all that because they were like u. they needed help and wanted attention. they just chose the violent way to express it and u chose the way to give in. u've been counselled by teachers but they never find out why u never wanted to go to school. u've had people using violence but u never retaliated. u grew into someone who hates violence. u've been made use of time and again. u became wary of people. people tricked u and u thought they actually, for once, like u. u find out they just wanted to make fun of u. u were hated for being teachers pet. suddenly u find ur life changing. u're confused. u dont know who is true. u find ur head in a big mess. u want to know why theres a change. no one wants to tell u. u want comfort and u want to know why those people were so bad to u when u were younger. u want to get out of being a shadow. u feel different. but u dont know how it'll last. u feel insecure. life just looks brighter. all u ever wanted was just a friend. who knows how it'll turn out.

copyrighted lokyin

wait did i just type tt?
tt big paragraph

yay 1 down
many more to go
dun ask me how it went anymore
i wont say
geog tmr
16 chap left
english
how to finish?
without help now

then again i dun need help from u
i alw managed

hist is repeating itself
with diff ppl

ahhhh

am i the only person devoted to my com?

have 4 people bombarding me with questions
5 to be exact
in 4 convos

my cousin talk to me
lalalala

doing math and chinese hw
and studying geog and german
found a great way to rmb hist

now everyones quiet
wow they do change fast

exam tmr
arrgghh
i got loads of well wishes
thanks

got to try my best
i promised

Happily ever after
They all lived happily happily happily ever after
The couple is happily leaving the chapel eternally tied
As the curtain descends there is nothing but loving and laughter
When the fairy tale ends the heroins always a bride
Ella the girl of the cinders
Did the wash and the walls and the winders
But she landed a prince who was brawny and blue eyed and blond
Still I honestly doubt that she could ever have done it without that
Crazy lady with the wand--Cinderella had outside help
I've got no one but me
Fairy godmother godmother godmother where can you be?
I haven't got a fairy godmother. I haven't got a godmother.
I have a mother. A plain, ordinary woman.
Snow White was so pretty they tell us
That the queen was insulted and jealous
When the mirror declared that Snow White was the fairest of all
She was dumped on the border
But was saved by some men who adored her
Oh I grant you they were small
But there were 7 of them practically a regiment
I'm alone in the night
by myself not a dwarf not an elf not a goblin in sight
That girl had 7 little men working day and night just for her
Oh sure the queen gave her a poisoned apple.. even so
She lived happily happily happily ever after
A magical kiss counteracted the apple eventually
Though I know I'm not clever I'll do what they tell me I hafta
I want some happily ever after to happen to me
[original]
[Rapunzel had platinum tresses
That were double the length of her dresses
She was kept in a tower for years by a wicked old witch
Till one night in despair down
She scrambled by letting her hair down
That's what I call quite a switch
I wonder no it'll never hold
I'll be finished before I begin
And besides]
{Revival}
{Winnifred Pade of the myre
Has one simple human desire
Oh I ask for no more that two shoes on the floor next to mine
Oh someone to fly and to float with
To swim in the marsh and the moat with
As for this one well, he'd be fine
but now it's all up to me!
And I'm burning to bring it about
If I don't I'll be stuck with goodbye and good luck and get out
I don't want to get out I want to get in
I wanna get into some happily happily ever after}
[I don't want to get out I want to get in
I want to live happily happily happily ever after]
I want to walk happily out of the chapel eternally tied
For I know I'll never live happily ever after till after i'm a bride
Then I'll be happily happy
Yes happily happy
And thouroughly satisfied


once upon a mattress

still have a stack of chinese hw to do
this is wad u get when ur teacher is absent for 2 wks

dun wan to do

29 hrs left
am still not motivated
oh no
math is alr impossible to get a1
or the only option is get 106 marks
cannot la

the rest of my grades all b so far
am going to keep it that way
or better

am off to finish german and geog
study i mean
and hw also
sometimes i rather have 1 per day

and u ask why
and u say i shouldnt have

why did i even try
cos i cared

little mr roo

Little Mr. Roo
Reaching up for the moon
So many things you've got to do
And no time for dreaming

Little Mr. Roo
Let the stars shine over you
Don't grow up too fast, too soon
Save some time for dreaming

Settle in, settle down
Let me see that sleepy yawn on your face
Close your eyes
I will love you completely and always

Little Mr. Roo
The moon shines silver over you
No one knows you like I do
And little Mr. Roo
Reaching for the moon
Don't grow up too fast
Too soon

disney song

still have a cold

sometimes it good to have a cold
since no one can tell if u're really sick
or crying

u ask why?
my answer is simple
i will go
and why?
i do all i can for what i like
its the same way with people
i can do anything

believe me or not
we are so going to be ready tmr
readily ready
i will bring the powerpoint
and slack

ok going to do some editing

Oh yea
Come on

You get the limo out front
Hottest styles, every shoe, every color

Yea when your famous it can be kinda fun
Its really you but no one ever discovers

In some ways you're just like all your friends
But on stage you're a star

You get the best of both worlds
Chillin' out, take it slow
Then you rock out the show

You get the best of both worlds
Mix it all together and you know that it's the best of both worlds

The best of both worlds

You go the movie premiers (is that Orlando Bloom?)
Hear your songs on the radio
Livin' two lives is a little weird
But schools cool cuz nobody knows

Yea you get to be a small town girl
But big time when you play your guitar

You get the best of both worlds
Chillin' out take it slow
Then you rock out the show

You get the best of both worlds
Mix it all together and you know that it's the best of both
You know the best of both worlds

Pictures and autographs
You get your face in all the magazines
The best parts that you get to be who ever you wanna be

Yea best of both
You get the best of both
Come on best of both

Who would of thought that a girl like me
Would double as a superstar

You get the best of both worlds
Chillin' out, take it slow
Then you rock out the show

You get the best of both worlds
Mix it all together and you know that it's the best of both worlds

You get the best of both worlds
Without the shades and the hair
You can go anywhere

You get the best of both girls
Mix it all together
Oh yea
It's so much better cuz you know you've got the best of both worlds


ok am really happy
have another cousin on my msn list
yay

the funniest thing is im the one hving exams but i talk the most

i think i have a cold
cos there're 10 tissues beside me

Take the world
Shake and stir
And that’s what I got going on
Throw my cares
Up in the air
And I don’t think they’re coming down
Yeah I love how it feels right now

CHORUS

Cause this is the life
Hold on tight
And this is the dream
It’s all I need
You never know where you’ll find it
I’m gonna take my time, yeah
I’m still gettin it right
This is the life

VERSE 2

Takin’ in
A whole new scene
And I’m swimming with a new crowd
Breakin down
The old four walls
And I’m building them up from the ground
Yeah I love how it feels right now

CHORUS

BRIDGE

Gonna follow my own lead, yeah
Kick back and feel the breeze
Nothing but the blue sky
As far as I can see


ok so i havent started on powerpoint today
but i will get to it

did i say i get overly excited when my cousin talks to me?
cos i am now

ok really going to do now

still have to do home ec powerpoint
dead beat
have another headache
this is going to be one long term

2 papers to finish for the weekend
and 1 long essay

i used to study online
though i still do
its different now

remember the saying no one is indispensable?
wad do u think?

dun say i didnt try
i am studying geog, chem and german now
plus recopying the notes
plus online revising
plus doing hw
plus home ec powerpoint
and when u see me again
u wont recognise me
cos i will have 2 big black patches beneath my eyes
i barely can recognise me now
its so dark
unless i can grab enough opportunities to sleep
is there any type of thing tt can keep people awake?
need it desperately
how many of me are there?

oral today
it was NOT easy
and i made many mistakes

thanks for e msg
it came on time
but i turned my phone to the non vibrating mode
so it wont ying xiang my mood


another day

fell asleep when i reached home
was so tired
still have another 11 hrs to sleep off

am so energiless now

-potential to roduce better results
-positive attitude towards sch work
-perform well next year
-willing to improve
-new ideas
-can do better
-capable of better results if se tries harder
-more confidence in herself
comments
obvious from where
and with these i work

no time to do hw but i will finish it
if there're too many typos ignore
my keyboard hard to type

am tired
cant believe the number of people saying i have huge eye bags
still doing

still on report
how to finish on time?
gg to do now

when its not ur problem, stay out of it
when theres no problem, stop saying there is
suspicions don't help any

am working on home ec stuff

got to slp soon
(:
the next timei blog long wil be when i am finally free

k i too busy now
just saying hi

met my aunt today
she on a trip
went chinatown and all tt
realise the young people all dont walk
the older ones actually walked
but the younger ones go take bus
with exception of me and my sis
haiz tts money

i quite miss my cousins
wish they were online

is it too late?
its 2 months and 3 days past
but i did it anyway

my bag strap spoil on the way to hsk
make me have to go home with another bag over it

am still seriously busy

as i said
if want to dui fu my friends
first ask me

pretty busy still moving my stuff over
its hard when ur com bullies u too
like i say

who say com cant make u unhappy?

am working on another project
winnie the poohs

i care abt ny grades
unlike some people

really
im starting to get scared of her

i go online every day

still doing my own things
love winnie the pooh
took pictures of every single winnie the pooh on my bed
call me immature if u wish
THEY were the ones who calmed me down
they are the ones who know my secrets
they helped me to sleep
esp when i didnt get those with others

when u insult my friends
ask me first

that is slander
there is no proof

if u have the integrity then own up
dont make someone innocent take the rap
i can vouch for her character
she has told the truth
cheating is an offence
so is theft

am still doing settings
will blog longer when i finish

am changing com.
very busy so no time to write
k er was another ok day
and got to go and download stuff

am very very sorry
i really tried
but it just didnt work

am working on wads belated for 2 months minus 2 days
well i planned on giving and doing it on tt day
but u said not ur choice
and i was tired

still studying physics at the same time
i actually know wad they talking abt
and blogging also

the show 'better halves' is really nice
go watch when u have time
i watch before

theres home ec tmr
breaking the news isnt going to be anywhere near easy
and I have to be the bad guy

was looking forward to studying
sorry
i truly am

have a nice stay

i have let down too many people in the past year
i know i did

just got to finish those
coming back tmr.
unless blogger breaks down too

math paper tmr
am i ready?
no
science paper after that
am i prepared?
no

got to run again tmr
feel like not going
haha

sitting by the com staring at my ppr
wondering how much of a miracle could happen

and look at the no of books i got to lug to sch
eng-nth
geog-3
math-2
lit-1
german-6
total=12
12!!!!

plus home ec notes-1
math, phy, chem ,bio notes-5 books
file-1

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

everyones studying but me

and why am i not studying?
well i dun know
should i have been studying?
i guess so

am going to hit the books now

still got to handle being a bad guy tmr
are u happy now?

doing chinese.
am just plain bored

its 9.56
u noe wad it means

ohya this morn at 12 i smsed her
her replied
and oh no hasnt forgotten who i am
at least she knows i still exist
haha

today is the 4th day
i got burnt 4 days in a row
believe it or not
wed was during the he stuff
thur was while i spilt burning hot soup on myself
fri was well i touched metal and an almost melted plate
today?
cooking mushrooms
i am just too accident prone la
i still got the scar left from ytd

i have a very messy study environment

and i still have hw left

am going to do now
and someone seems to be either late or not here

Concentration comes from a combination of confidence and hunger

Yuan4 suo2 you3 kuai4 le4 de dong xi
Wei2 rao4 zai ni3 shen1 bian
Smile


Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind


Never talk defeat-

The condition which high friendship demands is the ability to do without it. Do we forgive our friends or enemies?

A moment's insight is sometimes worth a life's experience

ji4 mo4 zhi3 shi4 yi ge4 tao2 bi4 de fang1 fa3,
xiang3 zhao3 dao4 zhen de zhi ji3 peng2 you3,
bi4 xu1 chi2 zhi yi3 heng2,
nai4 xin de qu4 zhao3 xun2

once bitten twice shy

In three words i can sum up everything that ive learnt abt life. it goes on

If u're sincere, praise is effective. If u're insincere, it is manipulative.

A smile is a window on ur face to show ur heart is at home

The desire not to be anything is the desire not to be.

at least no one can snatch my memories away from me

all the best to you too.

There will be a rainbow after the rain

There are 2 easy ways of sliding thru life; believe everything or dout everything. both save us from thinking

The difference in the impossible and the possible lies in a person's determination

U can tell a person more by wad he says about others then wad others say about him

Always remember others may hate u but those who hate u dun win unless u hate them back. and then u destroy urself

The best teacher is one who suggests rather then dogmatizes, and inspires the listener with the wish to teach himself

A faithful friend is a strong defense;and he that hath found one hath found a treasure

A weak man has doubts before a decision, a strong man has them afterwards

Its difficult to say who does u e most mischief; enenies with e worst intentions or friends with e best

Whenever u're in conflict with someone, there is one factor that can made the difference between breaking up and becoming even closer-> Attitude

Reach high, for stars lie hidden in ur soul. Dream deep, for every dream preceeds a goal

The great scheme of things, what matters is not how long u live, but why u live, what u stand for and what u r willing to die for

No work no prize; no pain no gain

A failure establishes only this; that our determination to succeed was not strong enough

We are all travellers in the wilderness of the world, and the best that we can find in our travels is a honest friend

A smile is the light in the window that tells others there is a loving, caring, and concerned person inside

Self reliance is the only road to true freedom; and being one's own person is its ultimate award

U must understand the whole of life, thats why u must study, sing, dance make friends, break up, love and suffer, and understand that all that is life

let the shrine of friendship never say die, let the wine of friendship never run dry

Never, never, never, never, never give up

An achiever is a doer, one that realises the challenge and willingly accepts it

A big shot is a little shot that kept shooting

The difference between an optimist and a pessimist is that an optimist thinks this is the best possible world. A pessimist fears that this is true

Break thru the barriers that have held u back and held u down for such a long time SMILE(:

People dun care how much u noe, till they know how much u care

Confuse not excellence and perfection. Excellence; i can reach for. Perfection; is god's business

The difference between perseverance and obstinacy is that one comes from a strong will and the other a strong won't

Perhaps the more delightful friendships are those in which there is much agreement, much disputation and yet more personal liking

just push HER aside and move on. Real friends are waiting... only if u search hard enough

true happiness consists not in the multitude of friends, but in their worth and choice

I have not failed, I have just found 10 000 ways that wont work

There are 2 kinds of failures, those who thought and never did, and those who did and never thought

i know the breaking down feeling. dont. it isnt nice

feel like rewinding

6/8/03
does the word senior mean anything?

19/4/03
ml but still saw her
small world

19/9/03
someone let me hold her stuff and forgot to take it back
had to go send it back to her

12/12/03
went to east coast park and was forced to learn to ride a bike
man i loved those people
and days

18/5/04
saw someone walking to bishan park in a pink frilly shirt

18/3/05
first patrol outing
it was so embarassing

8/7/05
lugging boxes home

2/8/05
first day of cip

23/8/05
cip but hey guess wad
recieved an sms

omg omg OMG
guess wad i just realised
i found 1 of the people i was looking for from kindergarten
she actually in my class right now
i gave up last year
but was just going thru my old blog posts and realised i knew a name
ahhhhhhhhhhhh
ok nth to be anxious abt actually
shall bring the photo to sch on mon
not close

just remembered
tmr is someones birthday
someone special
she stood up for me
she covered for me
she never thought about status

she remembers me at least
well she didnt forget
she smsed back

realised i have the knack of staying up to sms ppl and say happy bdae?

17/11/05
2 invasions
have to admit it was fun

dec10 and 22 went patrol outing again

'all the best to u too'
i really must say
thank you
i know we've had our problems
but for the many moments of comfort i thank you

the next post is dedicated to u
cos of all the nice things u did for me

somethings seriously wrong with me
cant believe i cried cos i 'misplaced' the home ec stuff
stress stress

thank you rachael
the sms was really funny
at least it took my mind off work while

thank you squeak
i mean ms not the mr one
those friends of urs really kept me busy with all the weird smses that werent supposed to be sent to me

actually cant help being stressed
4 people are depending on this set of notes
to not only pass
but get a good grade

and maths i still dont get the concept

and science
i die
forgot everything
except some parts of diffusion and osmosis
and a little of atomic structure
and maybe some chem

chinese? forget it

lit? well im starting on macbeth later
as in how much later i dno

deutsch???
man when am i going to be ready for the session on sat and sun?
its sat AND sun right?
or sat OR sun?
well im going to be online for both
time is alr stated go see
i got something to say
wait till wochenende
msn
i believe u'll be there
hope this time its not another time im stupid

am going to start on hw now

i think im falling sick
was dizzy when i was outside trying to start on hw
then realised i was burning
took my temp
not at fever yet but whenever it reaches 37 i know its coming

cant fall sick now
cant cant cant
exams coming
have to postpone sickness to dec
or can i?

it hurts

i didnt mean my head only

i've reopened the blog
im not sure i want to do this so give me some time
pls dun do anything else for now

THE BEST OF BOTH WORLDS
You get the limo out front
Have the styles, every shoe, every color.
Yeah, when you're famous it can be kinda fun
It's really you but no one ever discovers
In some way you're just like all your friends
But on stage you're a star

You get the best of both worlds(Both Worlds)
Chill it out,take it slow
Then you rock out the show
You get the best of both worlds(Both Worlds)
Mix it all together and you know that it's the best of both worlds
The best of both worlds


You go to movie premieres(Is that Orlando Bloom?)
Hear your songs on the radio
Living two lives is a little weird(Yeah)
But school's cool 'cause nobody knows
Yeah, you get to be a small town girl
But big time when you play your guitar

You get the best of both worlds(Both Worlds)
Chill it out,take it slow
Then you rock out the show
You get the best of both worlds(Both Worlds)
Mix it all together and you know that it's the best of both You know the best of both worlds

Pictures and autographs
You get your face on all the magazines
The best part is that
You get to be who-ever you want to be

Yeah, the best of both
You've got the best of both
Come on best of both
Who would of thought that a girl like me
Would double life a superstar

Whoa!

You get the best of both worlds(Both Worlds)
Chill it out, take it slow
Then you rock out the show
You get the best of both worlds(Both Worlds)
Mix it all together and you know that it's the best

You get the best of both worlds(Both Worlds)
With the shades and the hair
You can go anywhere
You get the best of both girls(Both Worlds)
Mix it all together, oh yeah
It's so much better 'cause you know you've got the best of both worlds.


well got let off at 11 today
and guess wad?
i left the school at 12.30
was sitting at the specs stand all along

this may or may not sound like a normal post to you

have almost finished the paper
have continued with home ec
and all for wad?

think i can say i have patience?
can rewind
lets count pri sch math

a few of my most treasured possessions till now
too bad i know im the only stupid idiot to keep some of them
even when those have lost their meaning

not in any order

a file of my certificates
a chain with 5 dangling stars
a friendship band
a certain white bear sitting on my bed
a certain brown bear sitting on my pillow
a grey hippo
a purple bear
and well, the others on my bed
but these are the most important ones

the file started in pri 4 or 5
the first cert was traffic games
i came in first
much earlier than the ones cycling
i walked

the chain and band
well i still bring it with me onto my bed every night
and bring it down again the next morning
so it wont get lost
but i guess im the only one acting so stupidly

the enrolment bear
i used to be scared of thunder
believe it or not
well its a comfort

the guide bear
erm i think u know

the hippo
lovingly named sesame
i used to bring it for vacations

the purple bear
its cuddly

some of them
i know

ok i guess im back to home ec
cos i know no one will be needing me
i can do the project now
and back to square 1
im useless in that way
why look for me only when u need help?
cos i am of use???


to a particular someone
i've watched part of troy
i still dont get why u like it so much
but well
i learned that we're different

and 'puke' colour isnt all that bad

two worlds

Put your faith in what you most believe in
Two worlds, one family
Trust your heart
Let fate decide
To guide these lies we see

A paradise untouched by man
Within this worlds blessed with love
A simple life, they live in peace

Softly tread the sand below your feet now
Two worlds, one family
Trust your heart
Let fate decide
To guide these lives we see

Beneath the shelter of the trees
Only love can enter here
A simple life, they live in peace

Raise your head up
Lift high the load
Take strength from those that need you
Build high the walls
Build strong the beams
A new life is waiting
But danger's no stranger here

No words describe a mother's tears
No words can heal a broken heart
A dream is gone, but where there's hope

Somewhere something is calling for you
Two worlds, one family
Trust your heart
Let fate decide
To guide these lives we see


woodlands library
say meet at pasir malam end up go burger king
hmph
thats why i was late ok
iw as actually on time
found out i could make it from here to woodlands in half hour
that is if i run all the way and bus and train come immediately

it was actually kind of fun
though i think running around with paper and pencil and drying ur mouth asking the same questions over and over isnt
i want to say something abt the survey
i went home and checked
oops
we didnt need 15 pple
wait dont kill me just yet
its better to have more
at least we made the effort

well accomplished that part
now have to work on explaining it
we did tt alr
bet it will take a hard time to tell her

will try to collate as soon as possible
one thing im not sure of is am i really doing the whole thing?
cos i feel like it
haha

at first i wanted to do this alone
cos im actually quite sure
SOMEONE wouldnt be of help
and SOMEONE would make things worse
and ok well maybe louisa is doing a little
but i said cos u do advertising i will do this
cant break my promise

and so there goes another long post
its to make up for the lost post 2 days later

well continue with the story
went minitoons
and the puzzles were like 4 for 10 dollars
too bad i cant drag a puzzle home
my parents will think im crazy

will start on home ec
and start on crediting people
and i dun care SOMEBODYS name will be at the top

happy hols to everyone!
well almost
[its not my problem]

'Little patch of heaven'
I know a place,
Pretty as pie,
Out where the riverbend
Hits up with the end of the sky.
It's left of Nebraska,
And over a crest,
On a little patch of heaven
Way out west.

Ev'rything's green-
Know what I mean?
Darlin' it's quite the sweetest sight
Thatcha ever done seen.
Ain't nothin' much out there-
Just life at its best,
On that little patch of heaven
Way out west.

Bees by the dozen
Are buzzin'
Real peaceful.
Ev'ry bluebonnet,
Doggone it,
Smells nice.
Even the tumblin' tumbleweed
Slows down to match ter speed
On my tiny half-an-acre
Of paradise!

Ev'ry which way,
Buttercups sway.
Out on the hill, the daffodills
Are enjoyin' the day.
What could be better
Than settin' to rest,
On a little patch of heaven
Way out west?

Hummin' birds flutter
In utter
Contentment.
Ev'ry dark daisy
Feels lazy,
You bet.
Even the skeeters an' the fleas
Say "May,I," "Thanks"
and "Please"-
Why, it's just as close to perfect
As you can get!

Darlin', I swear-
Once you been there,
There aint a view
Beneath the blue
That could ever compare!
The only thing missin'
Is you as my guest
On that little patch of heaven
Way out west...

Why don'tcha come visit?
There's room in my nest-
On that little patch of heaven
Way out west!


am going to do he tmr

today was fun
walked in the rain to sch
well walked a little
took bus halfway
got all soaked
quite obvious la
spent the whole day with a boat drowned in water
my shoes

i dno why but suddenly here comes my interest again

went to give teachers day pres
and also walked home after that
i cooked again
this time i remembered my photos

suddenly the whole world is telling me to decide some thing or another
do i look like the kind who can make decisions?
ans on tagboard pls
not anywhere else

NOBODY ELSE BUT U
Max
There are times you drive me, shall we say, bananas
And your mind is missin', no offence, a screw

Goofy
None taken

Max
Still, whatever mess I land in
Who is always understandin'?
No body else but you

Goofy
Oh, your moodiness is now and then, bewilderin'
And your values may be, so to speek, askew

Max
Guzoonheit

Goofy
Thanks

Who deserves a hero's trophy as we face each cat-a-strofee?
Nobody else but you

Both
No body else but you
It's just our luck
We're stuck together

Nobody else but you
Is crazy enough to believe we'll come through

Max
So your jokes are all, let's face it, pre-historic

Goofy
And your music sounds like monkeys in a zoo

Both
But when life becomes distressin'
Who'll I be S.O.S'in?

Max
If you're having trouble guessing, here's a clue
Though he seems intoxicated
He's just highly animated
And he's nobody else but

Both
Nobody else but you
We've turned into a true-blue duo
Hard times we've had a few

Goofy
Like we're thrown in the drink

Max
Like we're tossed outta town

Both
But when I start to sink, than I'd rather go down
With nobody else but Y-O-U!


still got home ec
am tired
spent the whole day out and reached home at 7.40
dun forget to go tmr

it was fun
it wasnt easy
it was my first time
burnt

SUSPICIOUS MINDS
We're caught in a trap, I can't walk out
because I love you too much baby

Why can't you see, what you're doing to me
When you don't believe a word I say.

We can't go on together, with suspicious minds
And we can't build our dreams, on suspicious minds

So, if an old friend I know, drops by to say hello
Would I still see suspicion in your eyes?

Here we go again, asking where I've been
You can't see these tears are real, I'm crying

We can't go on together, with suspicious minds
And be can't build our dreams, on suspicious minds

Oh let our love survive - or dry the tears from your eyes
Let's don't let a good thing die
When honey, you know
I've never lied to you
Mmm yeah, yeah


lilo and stitch

got a diary entry and a home ec assignment to do
just wanted to say thank you
i know theres a problem
but someone did help me and did lead me through a period of time
and gave me the courage i needed to start anew
and the soap
its still in my box

did i mention i was stressed the last few days?
ok so its prob quite obvious right

omg i didnt know
as i i really didnt know
i thought u were only thinking

i promised it'll remain a secret k

redirect- go e other blog
e first one
well if u happen to be my first online fren go there

well another day
exam coming
*******************

am wad u call miffed
make it mad
make it angry
make it furious
wait fuming sounds better
or should i say burnt

am so so irritated
tt doesnt concern me
its not my problem
not my fault
not my business
so mind ur own business too

i repeat
i have no control over it
so stop it
stop it stop it stop it stop it stop it stop it
aaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

am stressed out
eoys
but they're not the main reason
ever heard that ren2 bi1 ren2 bi1 si3 ren2?

stop forcing me
stop
stop
cant take it anymore

it not my fault
it isnt
wasnt
wont be

that one was
this isnt
wasnt
isnt
wldnt be

JUST STOP IT
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
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its been a year and 3 days
what was her idea of soon?
she promised
is she backing out?

its been 141 days
when can this be settled?

33 days
when is the promise going to be fulfilled?

am counting everything now
all the promises owed

some cant be counted
who said tt we shld go out sometime?
who said that things will get better?
who said she doesnt have any opinion and shes on my side?

all those broken promises

am so disappointed
u gave me hope
but u crushed it again

am in no mood to do anything

wishing for someone to be online
but she isnt